All that
Worry
And constant
Stress
Never made
Me love you
Any less
Xxx
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
All that
Worry
And constant
Stress
Never made
Me love you
Any less
Xxx
I knew as soon
As we touched
All wasn’t
What it seemed
Yet it still hurt
My heart
When I woke
With a start
To realise
It was a dream
The dead
Of night
Is always
The worst
That’s when
The silence
Really hurts
I remember
Driving to see you
In the middle
Of the night
I didn’t want
To talk
I just needed
To feel your might
Because I knew
When you kissed me
You’d wrap your arms
Around me tight
And that you
Would be the one
To make everything
Alright
Xxx
I suppose
I’ve never
Really cared
For people,
Places,
Or things
But just dealt
With the
Endless
Melancholy
That abject
Depression
Brings
I’d spent
So much time
Planning
On how
To end it all
That I forgot
How much
Just laughing
Can help
Avoid the wall
The more
I look
The more
I see
And I really
Don't like
What's in front
Of me
I am always here
He said
If you ever want
To talk
We could sit
And have a coffee
He said
Or go out
For a walk
Thank you
For the offer
She said
But I’d really
Rather not
If I start taking now
She said
I don’t think
I’d ever stop
It fucked me up
That much is true
But the lonliness
Was nothing new
Knowing
We’ll never
Meet again
Isn’t even
The worst
It’s more the fact
You never called back
That really
Fucking hurts
As we have found
Where your body has lain
We hope it heals
Your family’s pain
And though they’ll struggle
To see past the rain
Now you can be
Together again
I clear the table
But leave your plate
Telling myself
You’re just running late
Over
And over again
Nothing
Of what
We had
Remains
As our
Memories
Dance
Between
The flames
The worst is when
All hope is gone
And you know that they
Can’t carry on
When the end is coming
At them hard
And all that’s left
Is wounds and scars
That’s when you wish
They could call it a day
Instead of just watching
Them waste away
I remembered what
It was like today
Back when that pain
Gnawed away
When his death broke me
To the sum of my parts
And my mental health
Was off the charts
And although with her
I did empathise
I couldn’t be false
Or tell her lies
So I whispered the truth
As I’ve come to accept it
Although time does heal
It can never correct it
As another sun sets
On our argument
My stomach
Is still in bits
Because of all the things
We could’ve been
I never thought
That we’d be this
The longer I live
With a broken heart
The more I think dying
Was the easier part
I’ve found if you socialise enough
Sometimes, it actually works
Then it’s only when
You’re alone again
That it really fucking hurts
From over the hills
And far away
Your spirit calls me
Every day
Though I caught his eye
As he said goodbye
I couldn’t quite tell
If he would jump
But when he didn’t show up
Later on that month
I knew to the bridge
He had succumbed
If I was to meet my father
When he was a younger man
I would ask him some questions
To help me to understand
Like did he ever really love her
That’s what I’d like to know
Why did he defy his parents
If it was all just for show?
Why when he had his own kids
Did he revert back to what he knew
Why treat us the way he had been
What was he trying to do?
But most of all I’d tell him
Of the mistakes he was going to make
And convince him to do things differently
For our relationships sake
I’ll get up to eat
Some food today
As opposed to staying
In bed
Maybe then I’ll find
Ways to busy my mind
Instead of laying there
Like I’m dead
I didn’t mean
For you to leave
All I needed
Was a break
And now you’ve gone
All I do is dwell on
My unintentional
Mistake
I felt sorry for him
The boy on the train
Said he’d ran away
From school again
Told me his parents
Just didn’t care
There was nothing,
But misery,
For him there
On this, the day, for Valentine’s
I can’t help but feel
I’ve lost my mind
For there is no peace
That I can find
Now my heart is dead
And my eyes are blind
Sitting here
In our chair
Remembering how
You’d stroke my hair
And tell me
That you love me
Where is your commitment
He said
Your passion and desire?
It all left when he did
She said
Now there’s nothing
That stokes the fire
After all
Is said and done
I’m still devastated
That you’re gone
Xxx
Time may heal
But it kills too
I know that now,
Without you
Dealing with loss is hard
He said
Thinking that he’d really tried
It’s not like I lost him
She said
He actually fucking died
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