The Long Goodbye

I’ve never loved myself

So I didn’t expect you to either

Thank you so much for trying,

However,

But I knew we’d achieve neither

25/02/2021 8

Two Faced

You will never beat me,

So please don’t even try.

I could choose to hurt you,

To really make you cry.

But I’m the better person,

Of that I have no doubt.

So just carry on with your bullshit,

Because you’ll never drive me out.

(Originally Posted 02.06.2019)

22/02/2021 24

The Mirror

Hair crunchy like straw
Brain burst with chaos
Eyes darkened shadows
Arteries slick with grease
Lips rough as sandpaper
Cheeks stained with tears
Skin cracked and weeping
Forearms heavily scarred
Liver soaked with alcohol
Heart cold as granite

I hate looking in the mirror
For I do not like what I see
I shall stop looking in the mirror
For I do not like me

(Originally Posted 05.04.2019)

06/02/2021 20

You Know You Want To

Different lives

Different choices

If only we had the confidence

To listen to those voices

22/12/2020 6

‘Getting Away With It’

I’m
pretty
good
at it
now

Hiding
all
my
flaws

Thank
God
you
don’t
see

The
real
me

The
one
that’s
such a
fraud

09/11/2020 6

Hair Dye

So I’ll walk away

And say cheerio

To the girl

I used to know

05/10/2020 15

Middle-Aged Spread

Perhaps
I’ve
just
run out
of luck

Or
maybe
I don’t
give a
fuck

Either
way
it
doesn’t
matter

I must
accept
I’m
getting
fatter

22/08/2020 10

Self Esteem

There’s
nothing
more
disheartening

That
brings
such
misery
and
strife

To
find
I’m
much
more
captivating

On
the
page

Than
in
real
life

07/06/2020 10

‘You Make It Easy’

It’s
not
really
you I
love

It’s
that
when
I am
with
you

You
make
it
easy
to
believe

The
lies
I tell
myself
are
true

08/05/2020 7

Damaged Goods

It
really
isn’t
you,
it’s
me

You
deserve
to be
happy

But
you
won’t
get to
share

In
anything
with
me

But
sadness,
heartache
and
despair

And
untold
misery

08/04/2020 22

My Own Nemesis

Only
I
can
win

Or
I
can
lose

And
I will
do
either

In
whatever
way I
choose

06/03/2020 19

‘How Soon Is Now?’

All
I
do

Is sit
and
wait

My
wretched
mind

Spilling
its
hate

My
decrepit
body

Heaving
its
last

A
bloated
reminder

Of good
times
past

04/03/2020 0

Past Love(r)s

I buried
you a
long time
ago

Along
with
my self
esteem

03/02/2020 4

Never Ending

My
heart
is sore

From
searching
for more

Forever
rotten to
the core

13/01/2020 10

GameFace

All I do is let
people down

They want
me to smile

But I can
only frown

For I no longer
have the energy

To be the person
they want me to be

28/11/2019 10

Self Loathing

I wish
I could
see in
myself,

She
said,

What you’ve
seen since
our affair
began.

For that
you’d need
to love
yourself,

He
said,

And I
don’t
think
you can.