Two Cents Worth

It will get better with time

They lied

Before my tears

Had even dried

18/02/2021 18

Even My Tissues Have Issues

Will there ever come a day

When I won’t feel so sad

What the hell did I do

That was so fucking bad

All I ever wanted

Was to live a life free from pain

And yet it seems I am destined

To walk forever in the rain

03/02/2021 14

How Long Has It Been Now?

From this cold embittered heart

I just cannot be prised apart

Like a leech on an open wound

Oh, is there any hope for me

From the past to be set free

And to love again become more attuned?

🖤

17/01/2021 13

The Inner Turmoil

Always 
laughing 
and 
joking

Smiling 
on 
the
outside

While 
all the 
time I'm 
choking

On the 
emotions 
I'm trying 
to hide

14/01/2021 20

I Can’t Bring You Back Though, Can I?

I can look at your photo

I can whisper your name

I can press your shirt

Against my face

But nothing feels the same

11/12/2020 5

I’m Not A Little Girl Anymore

Touch me again

And I’ll break your arm

For I’m older and stronger now

You can’t do me any more harm

26/11/2020 10

My Lips Are Sealed

Don’t you worry

I will never tell

How much you hurt me

And put me through hell

But not to keep

Your good name intact

But more to ensure

You never come back

26/11/2020 14

In My Shoes

Bitter
and
twisted

Yes,
that’s
me

But
live
my
life

For a
minute
or two

And so
would
you
fucking
be

01/11/2020 12

Fancily Dressed

I’ve
often
been
tricked

In
my
life

But
rarely
ever
been
treated

So
it
shouldn’t
be

Any
wonder
really

Why
I always
sound so
defeated

31/10/2020 18

Old News

Some
people
may
have
already

But
I can
never
forget

For
even
after
all
this
time

I’m
still
fucked
in the
head

21/10/2020 13

Vital Signs

Surrounded
by death is
particularly
unpleasant

Especially
as not
everyone
makes it
to heaven

18/10/2020 23

It’s Always Worse In The Dark

I’m
crying
again

In
the
kitchen

Hot
salty
tears
itching
as
they
fall

All too
readily
from
my
face

As I
remember
what
I’ve
lost

And
who
I can’t
replace

02/09/2020 38

Handover

You’ll
never
cope

She
said

When
this
happens
to you

I
know

He
said

I’m
dreading
it too

16/07/2020 2

One Week On

What
exactly
am I
missing
out on?

Go on
then
please,
explain

It’s
your last
chance to
convince me

To
leave
the
house
again

08/07/2020 0

Found

Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be

Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind

All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose

A
method
that
is
kind

11/06/2020 8

HeadRoom

I
did
not
realise

That
space
in my
head

Would
still be
filled
by you

Even
though
you’re
dead

24/05/2020 6

Overpowered

It’s
not
only
my
heart
that
bleeds

As
you
take
care
of
your
own
needs

18/05/2020 8

Their Last Day

It is
still
fucking
horrific

Even
though
it is
expected

Nothing
ever
prepares
you

For
feeling
that
dejected

07/05/2020 10

Flashback

The
figure
creeps
around
outside

As I
watch
the
darkness
descend

I lie
there
rigid,
fraught
with fear

As
I know
how this
will
end

06/05/2020 6

In Sickness And In Health

How
the
fuck
can
it be
right

That
I have
to sleep
alone
tonight

I never
thought
that I
would be

On my
own at
thirty
three

05/05/2020 8

All Good Things…

So
I
suppose

This
is the
part

Where
you say
goodbye

And
break my
heart

04/05/2020 11

Damaged Goods

It
really
isn’t
you,
it’s
me

You
deserve
to be
happy

But
you
won’t
get to
share

In
anything
with
me

But
sadness,
heartache
and
despair

And
untold
misery

08/04/2020 22

Postponing The Inevitable

If time
isn’t on
our side

Then
what the
fuck is?

If it’s
all out
of our
hands

Then
what’s
the point
in this?

02/04/2020 13

Then And Now

I
was
so
happy
back
then

But
now
I’m
full
of
woe

I’m
definitely
not the
carefree
person
I was
a year
ago

03/10/2019 6

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