"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
You say I only call you
When I am feeling depressed
But from my point of view
What is actually true
Is you just don’t care about the rest
‘Call Me Anytime’
When
I need
you
You’re
never
there
It
hurts,
you
know
That
you
don’t
care
(Originally Posted 10.10.2020)
I am guessing
From the title
That this one is about sex
Though I accept the fact
It is pretty abstract
So the truth may well be more complex
Bodies
When you push
And I pull
My head is silent
But my heart is full
(Originally Posted 10.10.2019)
Sparks is an amazing song
And I guess Yellow isn’t bad
But by the time
We got to X&Y
There wasn’t a decent song to be had
The Coldest Of Plays
‘When
you
try
your
best
but
you
don’t
succeed…’
Just
fucking
give
it up
then,
Please
(Originally Posted 09.10.2020)
I guess I am
A misanthrope
Born as I was
Devoid of hope
Destined across
The world to mope
Forever trying
To avoid the rope
Misanthropic Me
People
never
cease to
disgust
and
disappoint
me in
equal measure
Perhaps
that’s
why my
life is
full of
discomfort
and
displeasure
(Originally Posted 09.10.2019)
Why don’t you just move on
They ask
And find another man
I’ve neither the inclination
I reply
Or the attention span
Stupid Questions
Do
you
still
think
of him
They
ask
Every
single
day
I
reply
Will
you
ever
stop
They
ask
Not
until
the
day
I die
(Originally Posted 08.10.2020)
I will keep saying it
Until I am blue in the face
That I was effectively widowed
At thirty eight years old
Is an absolute fucking disgrace
Leaving
Now it’s
time
for me
leave
Please
don’t
make a
fuss
It’s not
the end
of the
world
It’s
just
the end
of us
(Originally Posted 08.10.2019)
What’s the point
In dressing it up
And trying to be all poetic
Telling the truth
However uncouth
Will forever be my aesthetic
Blunt
I
wish
you
were
here
with
me
But
instead
I’m
all
alone
If
only
you
would
write
a letter
Or
call
me on
the
phone
It
would be
wonderful
to FaceTime
Or
if
you
texted
me
instead
But
I know
you
won’t
do any
of these
You
can’t
Because
you’re
dead
(Originally Posted 08.10.2020)
Well that lasted all of five minutes
As after that lockdown was lifted
I was out the front door like a shot
And did I care who touched me? Not a jot!
Deprived
I
honestly
don’t
remember
When
I last
felt
human
touch
And
as
time
goes
on
I’ve
started
to
feel
That
I actually
don’t
mind
too
much
(Originally Posted 07.10.2020)
It started out quite innocently
When I was just a kid
I used to pull my hair out
To stop me flipping my lid
But then as I grew older
Things took a darker turn
A wee nick here
A wee cut there
Sometimes even a burn
It’s not something I’m proud of
Or something anyone should aspire to do
But I can’t deny
That down the line
It’s those things that got me through
Thoughts #4
Sliced wide open again
For all the world to see
If only there was
Another way
To let the poison free
(Originally Posted 07.10.2021)
I remember there was
A lot of this back then
People calling, fawning,
And trying to be my friend
Now I think about it, perhaps,
They just didn’t know what to say
But at the time I recall how much I wished
They’d just stayed the fuck away
Fake Flowers
Your fake
concern
disgusts me
Your false
condolences
knock me sick
If you
really want
to comfort me
Just piss off
and leave me
alone,
Prick
(Originally Posted 07.10.2019)
And so
It comes time
To travel home again
At least
I’ll sleep
On this fucking train
Digging For Worms
Please
make
sure
you
bury
me
deep
So
I can
finally
get
some
fucking
sleep
(Originally Posted 06.10.2020)
I’ve actually done
Pretty well to be fair
Staying on here
With all this pain to bear
I guess I have found ways
To make it my own
But this place will never not be
Our forever home
Haunted
Death
peers in
through
the gloom
As I
lie here
alone in
this room
Upon
this bed
we once
shared
Crying for
the love
we once
declared
(Originally Posted 06.10.2019)
There’s nothing like
A good cut and blow
To help restore
Your get up and go
Hair Dye
So I’ll walk away
And say cheerio
To the girl
I used to know
(Originally Posted 05.10.2020)
I shout and swear
About how you don’t care
And you just presume that I’m strong
Yet if you actually asked
It’s a one hundred percent fact
That I’d lie to you all day long
The Self Pity Party
So many nights I’ve cried,
Feeling dead inside,
Whilst wrestling with my neurosis.
Now I can’t help but discern,
Despite your care and concern,
That you haven’t even noticed.
(Originally Posted 05.10.2019)
It’s been nearly three weeks now
That I’ve been off the booze
Choosing to cope instead
With the pain in my head
By getting some new tattoos
Therapy?
No
matter
what
the
guidelines
say
Or
how
many
braincells
may be
lost
I’ll
slay
my
dragons
my way,
thanks
And
live
with
whatever
the
cost
(Originally Posted 05.10.2020)
There,
she said,
I’ve
told my
truth
There
isn’t
any
more
Well
I am
glad
you
stayed,
he said,
As
that
wasn’t
boring
at all
Telling Tales
Why don’t
you stay
here
a while,
he said,
and have
a cup
of tea
But
I don’t
understand,
she said,
why would
you want
to talk
to me?
You’ve
got a tale
to tell,
he said,
and I
would
like to
hear
more
Well
you’ll
be sad
to find,
she said,
that I’m
just a
crashing
bore
(Originally Posted 04.09.2019)
It is hard to accept
Death is the last
That nothing more
Will come to pass
There is no healing
Or making sense of it all
When you’re the one left reeling
On the other side of the wall
One Night In Heaven
Now
we’ll
never
hold
hands
again
Walk
in the
park
or
kiss in
the rain
That
only my
fading
memory
of us
remains
Just
breaks
my heart
and blows
my
brains
(Originally Posted 04.09.2020)
You
really
are a
piece
of shit
That
gnaws
away
at my
brain
The
fact that
I’m even
still
writing
this
Just
drives
me
fucking
insane
You Know Who You Are (Part 2)
You
really
are
such a
prick
I don’t
know
how you
can show
face
That
you think
this can
be fixed
so quickly
Is an
absolute
fucking
disgrace
(Originally Posted 03.09.2020)
You Know Who You Are (Part 1)
You
are
such
an
unbelievable
cunt
Your
behaviour
has
been
just
vile
I
wish
you
nothing
but
unhappiness
And
a
life
spent in
lonely
exile
(Originally Posted 03.09.2019)
You were
Never destined
To be
Mrs Right
But as
Mrs Right Now
You were fun
So it’s good
That we dropped it
And eventually
Just stopped it
As no real harm
Was done
In Another Life, Perhaps
What
happened
the other
night
She
said
Must
never
happen
again
It
pains me
so much
to say it
He
said
But
we are
better off
as friends
(Originally Posted 03.09.2020)
I probably did write this
On a Tuesday
Fuelled by coffee
And nicotine
But in truth
This could’ve been posted
On any given day
Back in twenty nineteen
Tuesday
I called in sick for work today.
My heart just couldn’t come out to play.
All I’ve done is lie in bed
Filled with thoughts of fear and dread.
With nausea consuming every movement,
My mood shows no sign of any improvement.
I hate existing like this.
Full of anger, self loathing and all that shit.
I wonder how much more emotion can I conceal
Before I decide to end it all for real
(Originally Posted 03.09.2019)
I kow you’re out there
Selling your story
Accepting sympathy
Basking in glory
But remember I know
Those who dance to your tune
All know, deep down,
The truth about you
(Prick)ing At Your Conscience
Think
whatever
you
want
about
me
Speak
shit
to
whoever
will
listen
But
believe
me
when
I say
I
won’t
ever
rue
the
day
That
you
created
this
division
(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)
The first time
It was fine
As I was young and naive
I didn’t know
Where it would go
So it was easy to just believe
But now I’m older
And my heart colder
I need to be assured
That you intend
To keep up your end
Before my commitment is secured
Going Down The Rabbit Hole
If you don’t mean what you say,
Perhaps we should both just walk away.
Now.
(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)
I actually quite like this one
It makes me laugh each time I read it
Though I do wonder, sometimes,
If there’s enough in my rhymes
For other people to see it
Romeo & Juliet (Alternative Version)
When
you think
about it,
he said,
true love
never dies.
Oh great
she said,
here we go,
another
hapless
fuckwit
to despise.
(Originally Posted 02.10.2019)
It doesn’t matter where I go
Or who I try to be
One thing is always for sure
Trouble follows me
The Road To Happiness
So it’s off
out of the
country
again
Leaving
my
troubles
behind
Perhaps
I’ll find
happiness
again
Or at
least
peace
of mind
(Originally Posted 02.10.2019)
To be fair
If you did
I wouldn’t need
To confess
As it radiates
From me
Like stale beer
And cigarettes
Emptiness
At one time
perhaps
I would have
said yes
But the
desire now
I no longer
possess
Should you
ever try
your love
to profess
To this
emptiness
inside I
would confess
(Originally Posted 01.10.2019)
I know some prefer
The daylight instead
But I’ve always been
At my happiest in bed
Eighteen Hours
It’s the time
between
waking up
and going
to sleep
that I’ve
always
found
the most
troublesome
(Originally Posted 01.10.2019)
It’s funny how
To bookish types
I certainly was once attracted
Whereas now I’m older
I’ve no time for the smoulder
And need something far less protracted
Timerous Beasties
When
I picture
my
youth
I see
you
and
me
Sitting
beneath
that old
oak tree
You
reading
a book
My
head
on your
shoulder
Both
of us
hoping
The
other
is
bolder
(Originally Posted 01.10.2020)
I have never spoken
About that night
As to betray him
Would be be unfair
He only hit on me
Because he was ill, you see,
And his ability to judge
Impaired
Indiscretion
It was
what
it was
And
whilst
we
had
fun
Now
it is
what
it is
The
guilt
has
begun
(Originally Posted 01.10.2019)
You know what they say
Doesn’t ring true
Yet upon it
You are told to rely
All those stories
Retelling past glories
But you’re not allowed to question why
What I’ve always wondered
Is who decided
Which one
Was the most hallowed
For I know
I needn’t look
To a fictional book
To guide me on moral code
False Gods
Will
it
always
be like
this
She
said
Don’t
I deserve
a reprieve?
That all
depends
on the
book
He
said
In
which
you
choose
to believe
(Originally Posted 01.10.2020)
After spending seven hours today
Sitting on a train
As I lie here
I’m starting to fear
That I may never sleep again
The Sleeping Tablet
Thankfully,
tiredness
descends.
As upon
sleep,
sanity
depends.
(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)
Some have beauty
Some have braun
Some have charm and flair
Some of them even
Have half a brain
But to you they never compare
First Sight
It
was
clear
to me
The
moment
we met
That
you’d
be the
one
I’d
least
regret
Xxx
(Originally Posted 30.09.2020)
When I think of all
Those hours I lost
Feigning my interest
I realise now
How much getting out
Really was for the best
Just Me, Myself & I
Spending
another
day at
home in
reflective
solitude
Was
better
than
seeing
you and
your shitty
attitude
(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)
It doesn’t matter
Who I ask
No one can answer me
So three years in
It’s time to begin
Living independently
?
What did I do
to deserve this?
Why did this
happen to me?
Where will
I end up now?
Who is coming
to save me?
(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)
I’m not sure
If it was the booze
Or all the tablets
I was taking
But, ultimately,
I was pretty lucky
To survive all my (bad)
Decision making
Drunk
Looking in
the mirror
gives me
a fright,
But I think
I had a
good time
last night.
I don’t
remember
much or how
I got home,
So thank
fuck I’ve
woken up
alone.
(Originally Posted 29.09.2019)
I know it seems
Like I’m really evil
Always ranting and raving
And wishing ill on people
But, honestly, my poetry
Is just an outlet
I think you’d quite like me, actually,
If we ever met
Best Wishes
Enjoy
your
cake
You fat
fucking
snake
I hope
you
choke
and
die
Don’t
mind
me
As I
drink
my
tea
And
watch
the
world
go by
(Originally Posted 29.09.2020)
I’m not usually very good
With metaphors
But this one is pretty neat
Then I guess it would be
As it was conceived
While in the back seat of a Mini
Car Trouble
Nothing makes this better
Everything makes it worse
A body straining in first gear
But a mind stuck in reverse
(Originally Posted 28.09.2019)
I’ve never been easy company
People like me rarely are
But well done for persevering
For that you are a star
Misled
You say
it’s not me,
it’s you.
But
you’re
a liar,
And we
both know
that’s true.
(Originally Posted 28.09.2019)
I thought it was just me
Back then
But now I know I’m just one of many
Death affects everyone
As we all feel loss, innately
Only You
With my
heart
in my
mouth
And my
head
in my
hands
It saddens
me to realise
That no one
understands
(Originally Posted 28.09.2019)
I’d love to say
That two years on
That I have cleaned up my act
But from what I suffered
My body never recovered
And my mind will always be cracked
Old Habits
As my
veins
drip
with
chip
fat
And
my
lungs
marinate
in
tar
I
wonder
if,
perhaps
this
time,
I’ve
taken
things
too
far
(Originally Posted 28.09.2020)
It’s never too far away
That shadow
I see it from the corner
Of my eye
An ever present reminder
Of what we lost
And when we had
To say goodbye
Mourning
Darkness
casts a
shadow
over my
head
As it
does
over
my
heart
Thoughts
and
dreams
of you
abound
As does
sorrow
that
we’d to
part
(Originally Posted 27.09.2019)
There is no going back
There are no more simpler times
Now I just have to accept
That you’ll never again be mine
Undo
Can we go back
To a simpler time
When I was yours
And you were mine?
(Originally Posted 27.09.2020)
I’ve been around
For far too long
To fall for your crocodile tears
So go try them out
On someone else
Before their patience also disappears
Waterfalls
Go on,
Keep crying.
It changes nothing.
(Originally Posted 27.09.2019)
There’s one in every office
Whose presence elicits a grimace
And in mine it’s you
Who never ceases to
Push me to my limits
The Irritant
It actually
hurts to
listen to you
Let alone
look you
in the eye
Please just
leave me
alone
For I have
bigger fish
to fry
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
When everyone else
Thought the worst
I stayed with you
Your pain I nursed
Yet when things changed
And they turned on me
You hung me out
For all to see
That is really
What hurt the most
Although I’d helped you
And remained so close
You joined in with them
And betrayed me
Never once repaying
My courtesy
So that’s why now
All is said and done
I’m more than happy
Calling you a cunt
The Better Person
I loved you,
When no one else did.
Remember that.
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
I realise now
Your intentions back then
Were not quite
So well-meaning
All I can hope
Is that some other dope
Doesn’t fall victim
To your scheming
Already Grown Up
Come
with me,
he said,
take my
hand.
I’ll fly us
away to
Neverland.
I’m sorry,
she said,
but there’s
no way
I can.
Please
say that you
understand.
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
It’s not my fault
If you’re offended
By what I say or how I say it
It isn’t my job
To hide the truth
It’s my responsibility to display it
Sugar Coating
Don’t
want
the
truth?
Then
don’t
ask
me.
I
will
not
lie,
To
protect
your
sanity.
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
I can only hope
I find some worth in it
Given that you charge
50p a minute
Helpline
On the
day I
summon
the courage
to call
I know
you’ll be
there to
break
my fall
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
Seriously
They said
Do you have to be so fucking dramatic
One day you will feel the same
She said
When you experience something as tragic
The Double Bed
It’s been so quiet
Since you left
All I hear
Is my own breath
As I lie here alone
And wait for death
(Originally Posted 25.09.2020)
I went out a lot
In twenty nineteen
To live,
To laugh,
And to everything in-between
The Shot Glass
Drink,
drink,
and drink
again.
You know
that I’m
your only
friend.
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
Three years on
And although further forward
By the pain of his death
I am still tortured
At A Bedside, Desolate
There
is no
more
hope.
There
are no
more
dreams.
My life
continues
to fall apart
at the seams,
As I
lie here
thinking
of you.
And
wondering
what the fuck
I’m supposed
to do,
Now.
(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)
That I ever thought
Those pills would work
Is actually quite preposterous
For I have found
To my cost
That the pit of my stomach is bottomless
Prescription For A Broken Heart
I took
the first
one this
morning
The rest
won’t be
hard to
swallow
Soon
my belly
will be
full
And I’ll
no longer
feel so
hollow
(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)
I was just trying
He said
To force your hand
I never wanted to leave
I didn’t want to lose face
She said
Or wear my heart
On my sleeve
We just wish
They said
You’d told us the truth
Instead of making us believe
That you wanted to be with us
They said
When all that time
We were being decieved
Concequences
You said
you wanted
to leave
And I
didn’t ask
you to stay
So now
we lie to
someone else
And that’s
the price
we pay
(Originally Posted 23.08.2019)
It wasn’t that
I wanted to stop
But I was scared that we’d get caught
That’s why I knew
What I had to do
Even though it left us distraught
Condensation
As the
wind
rattles
the
window
pane
I
wonder
if it’s
cold
where
you are
Or are
you
now
just
over
heating
In
somebody
else’s
car
(Originally Posted 23.09.2020)
It would’ve saved a lot of time
She said
Had I walked away long ago
Oh please don’t kid yourself
She said
You’d still have lived a life of woe
‘Should I Stay Or Should I Go’
If
someone
told me
then
How all
this
would
end
I’d pack
a bag
and run
away
And not
even
bother
to pretend
(Originally Posted 22.09.2020)
I cannot deny
That there are times
When I imagine the singer in the sack
But mostly the guy
Who really catches my eye
Is the one with the sticks at the back
‘Outlandos d’Amour’
As my
soul
swoons
to his
song
And my
toes
tap to
his
tunes
I
remember
the
romantic
revelry
Of
those
academic
afternoons
(Originally Posted 22.09.2020)
If you were to see
Who I am inside
You would simply run
Away and hide
It’s not as though
I have ever lied
But to quell the beast
I’ve always tried
Hidden
There’s
so much
of me
You
never
see
So many
things
I do
That are
hidden
from view
I know you
won’t believe
it’s true
But it’s
my way of
protecting you
(Originally Posted 22.09.2019)
If you’re worried who’ll win
In the end
Then you absolutely needn’t be
For it may look like I haver
But I would wager
That she’s still far more troubled than me
Let
I let
myself
down
today
When I
let you
inside
my head
I wish
I could
just let
you go
And
enjoy
my life
instead
(Originally Posted 22.09.2019)
I may spend time lying down
But not much of that is sleeping
It’s existential dread
That fills my head
And that’s not to mention the weeping
Forty Winks
Why do
I bother
coming
to bed
It’s not
like I
can
sleep
All I
do is
fucking
lie here
Overthinking
and
counting
sheep
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
Betraying my classical education, perhaps,
With a title such as this
A throwback to those halcyon days
When it wasn’t all just shit and piss
Conversations With Hades
Tell him
this pill is
too bitter
to swallow
Tell him
we still
have time
to borrow
Tell him
I’ll never
cope with
the sorrow
Tell him if
he takes you
to expect
me tomorrow
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
It’s only hypothetical
Because too much time has passed
Though I’m pretty sure
If I wanted more
You’d say yes, if asked
Hypothetically Speaking
Do you
ever think
of me
In those
moments
you have spare
Do you
ever
dream
Of running
your fingers
through my hair
Do you ever
imagine how
it would feel
If you
held your
hand in mine
Do you ever
long to look
into my eyes
And feel
our souls
entwine
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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