The Sadness In My Soul

I wish I could update this one

Comment on how it has aged

Yet it seems that when

I pick up the pen

It’s only my tears that fill the page


I Hope So

Sing
to me
some
more

She
said

For
your
voice
I hold
so dear

I’ll
always
sing to
you

He
said

Even
when
I’m no
longer
here

Xxx

(Originally Posted 01.09.2020)

Departures

When I sat down and wrote this one

Everyone else was at the bar

(In the grand scheme of things that day

We hadn’t travelled very far)

Whilst I waited for my drink

I plastered on a smile

Wishing I was anywhere but

En route to the Emerald Isle


The Airport Lounge

It doesn’t matter how loud people are

They never drown out the voices inside my head.

(Originally Posted 23.05.2019)

My Unhappy Place

Not only is my bed

Still a blessed sanctuary

But back then,

Believe you me,

It was entirely fucking necessary


Fear

I’m
going
back
to bed

It’s
not
worth
staying
awake

From
these
thoughts
in my
head

I need a
fucking
break

(Originally Posted 04.04.2020)

Still Mad

I told you they’d quiten down

He said

That you just had to give it time

The reason I don’t hear them

She said

Is because now they tend to mime


Psycho(tic) Babble

It’s
past
midnight
again

And
still
I’m not
in bed

When will
they stop
driving
me insane

These
voices
inside
my head?

(Originally Posted 16.03.2020)

Personality #3

I see you there

With your vacant stare

Drowning in infinite sadness

But never fear

I’ll alway be here

Trying to sweep away your madness

The Faceless Female

She’s back again,
the little control freak,
whispering from my shoulder.

She never really goes away,
despite my efforts to brush her aside
or however much I grow older.

I’ve never once turned to look
at her whilst I try hard to
drown out her speech.

But I never forget
she’s there, berating me,
and bleeding me like a leech.

(Originally Posted 04.08.2019)

Shapes

Leave
this
place,
the
light
shape
whispers,
for
it
is
not
your
time.

I’m
staying
here,
the
dark
shape
whispers,
for
now
I
want
what’s
mine.

(Originally Posted 16.05.2019)

I Hope So

Sing
to me
some
more

She
said

For
your
voice
I hold
so dear

I’ll
always
sing to
you

He
said

Even
when
I’m no
longer
here

Xxx

Quieten Down(er)

I’ll
take
anything
you’ve
got to
give

A drink;
a smoke,
a sedative

As the
voices
in my
head
these
days

Are
proving
far too
competitive

Story Books

Read
to me
some
more

She
said

I
swoon
to the
sound
of your
voice

Tell
me
what
you
want
to
hear

He
said

You
know
it’s
always
your
choice

Alone

It’s
just
fear

That’s
all
it
is

That
when
push
comes
to
shove

It’ll
all
end
like
this

Internal Monologue

What the fuck
is wrong with you?

Just cheer up
you miserable cunt

Your wallowing
is excruciating

And your self
pity an affront

With Me

Your
words
tattooed
on my
brain

Forever

Reminders
of how
we faced
that
pain

Together

8.05pm

I can’t
be arsed
with any
more today

I’m just
going
to go
to bed

At least
that way I
might get
some respite

From the
voices
inside
my head

The Asylum

I don’t
think
there’s
a way
out

I don’t
even
know
how I
got in

Perhaps
I should
just
scream
and shout

And
wait
for the
voices
to begin

Self Sabotage

Fall in
love with
me all
you like

But don’t
think I
can love
you back

The
voices
inside
my head

Have long
since put
a stop
to that

Let

I let
myself
down
today

When I
let you
inside
my head

I wish I
could
just let
you go

And let
myself
enjoy life
instead

The Psychic

She told me this would happen

When we met many moons ago

She knew you were in jeopardy

That you would reap what you sow

She sent an angel to watch over you

While I sat and took the piss

I wish I’d realised then that it would all end like this

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