When you said
I should leave
I did what
You asked me to do
I used that day
To run away
From everything
I knew
All those years
You took the blame
For me pressing
Self destruct
When, in truth,
It was just an excuse
That I used
To get fucked
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
When you said
I should leave
I did what
You asked me to do
I used that day
To run away
From everything
I knew
All those years
You took the blame
For me pressing
Self destruct
When, in truth,
It was just an excuse
That I used
To get fucked
What can you do
When you’ve been mistaken
When you realise your life
You have forsaken
When you can’t go back
And start again
When it’s only regret
That does now remain
Double Take
It’s only
now I
realise
I’ve
played
this all
wrong
And it
actually
should
have
been
you all
along
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
It’s four twenty five in the afternoon and I’m still lying in bed.
Trying, in vain, to sleep away the thoughts inside my head.
Perhaps I should get up and go out for a bracing walk instead.
It has to be better than staying in here and wishing I was dead.
(Originally Posted 22.06.2019)