A Life Together

There were times when I would tire of it all,

But I don’t have a single regret.

I never once got bored of it all,

Our inescapable duet.

(Originally Posted 06.05.2019)

14/02/2021 0

Jigsaws

You should be here with us. 

Reciting these stories,

Reminding us of the facts,

Pointing out the details,

Bringing these memories to life.

We didn't realise, back then,

We'd need to remember it all.

As one day you wouldn't be here,

To connect the dots... 

(Originally Posted 13.03.2019)

14/02/2021 4

‘Blue Sign’

I was doing really well today you know.

I got out of bed at a reasonable time.
I sang to myself in the shower.
I put on different clothes.
I remembered to fed the cat.

I cleaned the bathroom.
I threw out the stale food from the fridge.
I washed the bed sheets.
I took the rubbish out.

I went for a swim.
I started listening to a new podcast.
I went shopping in the afternoon.
I even flirted with the man who served me.

And then I drove past the blue sign.
And the sky fell in.
And I remembered everything.
And my heart shattered all over again.


(Originally Posted 11.03.2019)

14/02/2021 12

Imprint

I roll over to your side of the bed.

My limbs search for yours,

My lungs for your scent,

My mouth for your kiss.

But all that’s left is your imprint.

So my tears fall into your pillow,

Once again.

(Originally Posted 23.03.2019)

14/02/2021 16

An Honour

I’ve never met anyone else

Who could spin a tale like you

Who tied people in knots with laughter

Who turned the air so cheekily blue

You were a master of your trade

The likes of which there’ll only ever be one

I’ll never forget your stories

Even now you’re gone

You’ll always be my hero

And a treasure to many more

I hope one day we’ll meet again

My Glaswegian raconteur

Xxx

29/01/2021 24

Recurring

The tears I cried

When you died

Will never fully dry

For with each day

Dawns a new array

Of pain I can’t deny

Xxx

22/01/2021 4

The Beach

I'm 
glad 
I spoke 
to you
today

Even
though 
it was 
only 
the 
wind 

That 
could 
reply

Xxx

04/12/2020 26

Still

Thunder rolls

Lightning strikes

As grief still cuts me

Like a knife

Xxx

01/12/2020 26

I Wish

I wish that I had asked you more

I wish I’d kissed you each day

I wish that I had really made sure

I wish I’d begged you to stay

Xxx

01/12/2020 14

Moments

This is why

I’m still alive

To be here

In moments like this

When all the pieces

Fit together

For these few seconds of bliss

Xxx

01/12/2020 12

Hallmark Verse

Rest in power

Rest in peace

For at least now

Your pain has ceased

Xxx

01/12/2020 2

Tu Me Manques

I just wish you were still here.

That’s it.

No flowery language.

No poetic licence.

I just wish you hadn’t died.

Simple.

Xxx.

01/12/2020 10

Ontology

Who am I now?

What should I do?

Why am I still here?

When I could be with you?

Xxx

30/11/2020 6

Ping

Your final post

Flashed up today, as a memory

And although just a notification

It meant so much more to me

Xxx

20/11/2020 16

‘You Don’t Know What You’ve Got ‘Til It’s Gone ‘

It’s
only
now
I dream
of
you

Now
that
you
are
dead

If
only
you
were
still
here

And
not
just
inside
my
head

Xxx

12/11/2020 2

The Ends Of The Earth

I really
cannot
wait to
drive

All
along
that
rugged
coast

To
settle
in those
mountains

And
mourn
who
I miss
the most

Xxx

06/11/2020 10

All That Once Was

It
was so
much
better

When
you
were
here

Holding
you
close

Pulling
you
near

Now
all
that
once
was

Has
gone
away

I’m
left
here
alone

And
that’s
not
OK

Xxx