I cried for
hours this
morning
I found your
notebook in
my pocket
Now I’ve
started to
read it
I don’t
know how
to stop it
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I cried for
hours this
morning
I found your
notebook in
my pocket
Now I’ve
started to
read it
I don’t
know how
to stop it
If
you
stand
by
meThen
I’ll
stand
by
youFor in
this
world
of
treacheryIt’s
all
we
can
do
‘A day without laughter is a day wasted…’
Oh fuck off Charlie,
Life’s far too complicated.
Let’s
all
raise
a glassAnd
make a
drunken
toastTo all
those
cruel
bastards
out thereWho
claim
they
love us
the most
Lingering
on the
ocean floorLurking
in the
starknessThis is
where we
both belongHidden
amongst
the darkness
I reckon
I could
manage
todayIf I
could
see
your
face
againI reckon
I could
find
a wayIf I
could
hear
your
voice
againI reckon
I could
try to
be okayIf I
could
hold
your
hand
againI reckon
I could
probably
stayIf I
could
kiss
your
lips
again
They say
you can
never go
home
againAnd I’m
starting
to believe
that’s
trueFor all
that resides
here now
is a world
of painAnd
far too
many
memories
of you
Love is
irrelevant
in the
great war
of life
For all it
leads to
is incessant
trouble
and strife
If it
was you
I saw
in that
doorway
tonightI hope my
presence
gave you
such a
frightThat
perhaps
now you
realise
I’m as
happy as
can beAnd
it’s just
you I no
longer
want
to see
Life was
cruel to him
And people
were cruel too
It was only me
who was kind
Me who stuck by
him like glue
You
pulled
me into
your
orbit
And
then you
promptly
jumped ship
I will
never
forgive
you for
that
You
fucking
piece
of shit
I feel
so small
my skin
crawls
with the
itch of a
thousand
years
eyes
bawl
from the
pain
while
all the
time you
laugh
from
behind
the wall
ready to
hurl
your
next
curveball
my way
You
know
nothing
about meYou
sanctimonious
cuntNow fuck
off and
leave me
alone
Maybe
one day
we’ll meet
againBut no one
knows
if that’s
trueSo until
such time
as that day
may comeI’ll just
lie here
and dream
of you
One by
one the
leaves
have
fallenAnd I
can no
longer
see your
shadowI
suppose
it is
Autumn
after allAnd all
hope
I must
now
forego
No one
sees
me as
anything
moreThan a
sad and
lonely
depressed
old boreA pathetic
waste of
space for
sureJust
another
nuisance
to ignore
You should
talk more,
he said,
open up
about
how you
feelIt’s not
possible,
she said,
for it’s
not my
secret to
reveal
I’m
learning
more and
more, day
by day.
Going to
lectures,
finding
my way.
Knowing
when to
work and
when to
play
Hoping
you’ll
be there,
on my
Graduation
Day.
I don’t
think
there’s
a way
out
I don’t
even
know
how I
got in
Perhaps
I should
just
scream
and shout
And
wait
for the
voices
to begin
You
once
were
mineBut
now
you’re
goneI was
once
on
cloud
nineNow I
can’t
even
see
cloud
one
How do you
want me to feel?
Guilty for trying?
Because I am not.
Guilty for crying?
Because I am not.
Guilty for lying?
Because I am not.
Guilty for dying?
Because I am not.
I’m on
the cusp
of something new
But I
don’t know
quite what to do
I just can’t
decide what’s
false and what’s true
Or when
would be the
right time to tell you
Your
obsession
with me
will wane
one dayThen all
of my
troubles
will fade
to grey
Hotel
rooms
Seedy
as fuck
But so full
of promise
All at the
same time
I’ll always
be better
than youOf that
there can
be no doubtFor you
really don’t
have a clueHow much
bullshit
you spout
If I
just
don’t
think
about
itThen
maybe
that
day
won’t
comeI’m
just
not
sure
I can
face itWhen
all
is
said
and
done
I’ll never be
who you want
me to beSo you’ll
just have
to accept itPlease stop
trying to
change meOr you’ll
just end up
rejected
You’ll probably never see me again
And I’m quite happy with that
As it’s the very least you deserve
For being such an obnoxious twat
Why oh why
did I try
to paint
my nails
on a train?Never will
I attempt
such a
ridiculous
thing again!
Darkness
swirls
inside
the pit of
emptiness
as it
screams
and
sprawls
around
me
Perhaps
I should
take
heart
now
that the
pit of
loneliness
is
behind
me
I’ll
say
it was
my
faultI’ll
take
all
the
blameJust to
protect
you
and
yoursFrom
feeling
this
terrible
shameBut
don’t
think
it’ll
lastI
won’t
stay
quiet
foreverOne day
I’ll
tell
the
truthAnd
all
ties we
will
sever
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