“The Demons In Your Head”

You thought

You’d stop

Didn’t you?

And you’d never

Touch me again

That you wouldn’t

Need knives

Or razor blades

To cope

With all your pain

Yet here you are

With scissors

Poised to plunge

Into your skin

What a stupid bitch

To think you could switch

And that I

Would never win

2

Afternoon Delights

“Oh, how I’ve missed this”

She said

Running her hands

Through his hair

That he wasn’t the first

Of the day for her

Was neither here

Nor there

4

In Ruins

I gave you every

Piece of me

Acted like

A woman posessed

And yet

You squandered

Everything

Until there

Was nothing left

8

Like Candy From A Baby

You seem to spend more time

Smiling

He said

Than you ever did

Before

I’ve just gotten better 

At hiding

She said

So you won’t ask me

Anymore

8

Shadows

They say

You are

No longer here

But I see you

Clear as day

I hear you

Talking

In your sleep

As I while

The hours away

They want me

To think

It can’t be true

That I’m mad

And must take

A pill

But I know you

Will never leave

And I am not

Mentally ill

4

Still Fucking Miserable

It’s about time

You reared

Your ugly head

I was panicked

Fearing

The worst

And yet soon

You’ll be wishing

I was still missing

As there’s no

Let-up

To my verse

8

Absence

I guess you could say

I’ve been in mourning

With no desire to see

Yet another day dawning

And despite me trying

To relieve this burden

It would only be lying

To say my future is certain

30

Cheap Rent

Fancy coming up

He said

For a night

Of unbridled bliss?

I shouldn’t think so pal

She said

After all,

I’ve heard you piss!

Are you some kind of freak

He said

When someone pees

You listen in?

It honestly can’t be helped

She said

These walls

Are paper thin!

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The Unknowable

Sometimes I wonder

If you were asked

What it is

You’d say

About me

Would you describe

All that time

We spent

Together

As happy?

6

Make Your Mind Up

You always beg me

Not to go

Whenever

I try to leave

But if I stay

You’re quiet anyway

Then I’m the one

Feeling peeved

8

“You Wouldn’t Understand…”

You want advice?

I’m full of it

She exuberantly claimed

On any topic or theme

I can intervene

And so help to ease your mind

I can think of nothing worse

She sighed

Than spilling my guts to you

Because all I’d hear back

Is a load of crap

From your asinine point of view

6

What An (Ass)ignation

And so

It’s farewell

On the longest

Night ever

For we must

Now part ways

At this break

In the weather

And although

Seeing you

Truly was

A pleasure

I know not

To repeat

Such a foolish

Endeavour

4

Mutual Culpability

It doesn’t matter

Who was right

Or who

Was fucking wrong

We both did

The worst

And equally

Got hurt

By stringing

Each other along

0

On Corruption

Yes

We should all

Go out

And vote

But really,

What’s the point?

When those in power

The depths

Do scour

And criminals

Forever appoint

11

Half-hearted

You could try

A little harder

He said

And not be afraid

To commit

Why would I

Even bother

She said

When your heart’s

Not even in it

5

New Glasses Day

I know

When I

See you again

There’s no way

That you

Won’t comment

But I hope

And pray

You’ll be kind

And say

You admire

My confidence

4

Just A Small Town Boy

Yet another

Young life

Gone too soon

More candles lit

And flowers

Now strewn

Lest we forget

What an impact

It has

When the world

Watches on

But ignores red flags

4

See If You Like It

You’d think

That after

All this time

You’d know

What you did wrong

How you hurt me

So viciously

By stringing

Me along

But it seems

All that

Is lost on you

From what I’ve heard

You share

So I’ll care not a jot

In telling you to fuck off

And just leave you

Hanging there

0

Finding The Time

Ah, you’re still here

He said

So you’ve not popped

Your clogs yet?

It’s not for a lack of trying

She said

But the chance

Has been murder to get

2

Hoodwinked

Never again

Will I give you

The benefit

Of the doubt

Not now your lies

Have been uncovered

And the truth

Is finally out

3

A Rum Punch

If at first

You don’t succeed

You should try,

And try again

Then when all else fails

Down a sea of cocktails

And hope

It dulls the pain

10

Fleeting

If you get

A chance

Of happiness

You should grab it

With both hands

Take it from one

Whose time

Has gone

And so completely

Understands

5

I Think I Love You

This should’ve been

About convenience

And not a true

Affair of the heart

But when you tell me lies

To my total surprise

It completely

Tears me apart 

2

Dead And Buried

You’ll no longer tell

Me what to do

How to think

Or to behave

Now the stars have aligned

I know my own mind

And I’ll take it

To my grave

0

Desperate

I think I thought 

I’d be alright 

That it would all

Work itself out

And yet

I’m still here

Suffering

From loneliness

And self doubt

4

Consumed

I’m not saying

You should forgive

But you could try

To forget

It can’t be a life

Worth living

Full of self loathing

And regret

2

All You Deserve

Perhaps it’s time

I move on

And forget

The things you did 

It most likely wouldn’t

Take me long

To find reasons

To forgive

But there’s still a hold

On my heart

That stops me picking

Up the phone

A feeling I’ve had

From the start

Something I

Have always known

That’s even if

I was forthcoming

I’d get fuck all

In return

So, for now

I’ll just say nothing

While the fires

Around you burn

2

Lucid Drinking

As I sit here

Nursing a beer

Facing up

To the cold light of day

It is crystal clear

To me now, dear

You never loved me

Anyway

3

Fickle

You can pull
Out all the stops
Call on every ploy 
And device 
But whatever the spiel
They will never feel
Exactly the same way,
Twice
4

The Operation

Is there another way

She asked

To cure my ills?

I’d have no problem

Taking the pills

If there was something

He said

To advise, I would

But no pill out there

Would do you any good

What are you saying

She asked

I’m devoid of hope?

All that’s left

Is to sit around and mope?

What I mean

He said

Is given your pain

The only way forward

Is to rewire your brain

5

Tapping Out

That’s it

I’m done

I have had

Enough

There is no

More smooth

To soften

The rough

And I know

That I seem

Pretty hardy

And tough

But trust me

I’m made

Of nothing like

The stuff

10

Poking The Bear

Now you’ve upped

And left me

Breaking my heart

Again

I wish you nothing

But cruelty,

Emotional torture

And pain

10

The Endless Search

If I could turn

Back the clock

I’d say yes

To that walk

If only the sands

Of time would stop

I’d stay awhile

And talk

But for a return

Through time and space

There is no point

In wishing

If wherever I’d go

Whatever the place

You will still

Be missing

Xxx

10

Fuck You Very Much

There’s plenty that

I could have said

Even more

I could have done

But you don’t deserve

The satisfaction

Of thinking

That you’ve won

2

As If

I find it funny

You think 

I’d remember

Even more so

That I’d care

Because

Everything you said

Went over my head

As you were blissfully

Unaware

0

Taking A Number

I actually believed it

When you said

“I love you”

But little

Did I realise

I was at the back

Of the queue

2

I Remember

You cannot say

You didn’t know

Or that I wasn’t clear

When I said no

The fact that you

Were “just a kid”

Will never justify

What you did

4

Used To It

It’s not me you want

It’s her, over there

With the sparkly eyes

And the perfect hair

But I’ll play along

And my feelings, ignore

After all I’ve done it

Plenty times before

0

Saturday

It wasn’t written 

In the stars

Or foretold through 

Your wanky cards 

It was just by chance 

We met that day 

And I wouldn’t have had it 

Any other way

Xxx

4

Compadre

There’s no way

I could know

The depths of your hell

But I’ve known

My own

All too fucking well

2

Dying On That Hill

Although you’ve talked

For a while

I’m not sure where

You’re going with this

But if you’re prepared

To take a shot

You’d better make sure

You don’t miss

0

The Wrong Tree

It’s nice to see

How you are with me

Is in no way chauvinistic

But as for your chance

When it comes to romance

I wouldn’t be too optimistic

2

Piecemeal

As the punches roll

Time takes it’s toll

And I lose more

And more

Each day

I can’t be wrong

Thinking

It won’t be long

Before I fully

Fade away

0

Spoons

It’s only now 

On this 

Winters night 

That I wish

You were here 

By my side

2

Take Note

If what you say

Proves to be true 

Then I will give 

Myself to you 

But if what you say 

Proves to be false 

Then I’ll rip you apart

Without remorse

8

Summer Holidays

Thank fuck

She said

I’m getting away

I couldn’t take it

Another day

I’m so happy

He said

You’re visiting me

As I’ll help you forget,

Easily

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