Being Toyed With

As I have never

Loved again

From that day

To this

I cannot help

But wonder

If someone up there

Is taking the piss

I Can’t Tell You

I can’t
tell
you
how
much
better
I feel

To
know my
feelings
I need
no
longer
conceal

I
can’t
tell you
how much
more open
I am
now

To the
possibility
of loving
someone
again,
someday,
somehow

(Originally Posted 11.09.2019)

2

Gullible

He never did finish that sentence

Or did he help me to fly

He soon did away with the pretence

And left me high and dry

Learning to Fly

No,
she
said,
I don’t
think
I can

Just
trust
me,
he
said

(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)

0

The Agenda

I’m not sure I believe you

She said

There must be some kind of catch

Offers like this are rarely made

She said

With no strings attached

The Settlement

I only want
what’s best
for you,
he said,
even if that’s
not what is
best for me

I just
want this
to end,
she said,
I simply
want to
be free

(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)

2

Unresolved

You should never go to bed

On an argument

That is what they say

But what do you do

When he always blames you

And you argue every day

‘Turn Away On Your Side…’

Was
I always
wrong

Or was
I sometimes
right

Not that
it matters
anyway

Now I’m
alone at
night

(Originally Posted 10.09.2020)

4

I Wasn’t Given Any Instructions Either

I know you’re looking

To me for help

But I am just

As clueless myself

I’m Sorry

It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyes

I felt
every
ache
of your
heart

If only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feel

But
I’ve no
wisdom
left to
impart

(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)

6

Random #238

‘You want it
You’ve got it
You took it all from me
My cheque book, my wallet
My pride and dignity…’

4

Random #237

‘Some things are more important than ability’

Advert for a young guitar player, NME, 1989

2

Innocence

Nothing prepares them

For what’s to come

The devastation

And then some

All I can say

As I watch them have fun

Is just be there for them

When they are done

Piercing

It looks
like this
situation
I may have
misjudged

As not
once did I
think it
would hurt
this much

(Originally Posted 09.09.2019)

2

In Body Only

Men may have since

Shared my bed

But they have never

Shared my head

Like you

Fuck Knows

My days
are sad

My nights
are lonely

Fuck knows
if I’ll ever

Only be
true to you

(Originally Posted 09.09.2019)

2

The Eclipse

It happened quite by accident

As when she left the tent that morning

There was no way she could have known

That a whole new era was dawning

But as they both sat drinking wine

With their connection forming

She began to realise, at last,

Her heart was capable of rewarming

The Lost (We)ekend

I
don’t
know how
we got here

But
here
we are
nonetheless

We
should
just make
the best of it

Before
we have
to reassess

(Originally Posted 09.09.2020)

2

The Bookshop (2)

I went back into that bookshop

Just for old times sake

And although they played

A different song today

I still remembered our first date

The Bookshop (1)

I went
in there
just now

The one
I went into
with you

They were
playing
your song
on the radio

And because
you would
have smiled,
I smiled too

(Originally Posted 08.09.2019)

6

His Best Friend

We both met up again last night

And as we held each other tight

We reveled in our connection to you

Before parting in the morning hue

Your Birthday

Yesterday
we
remembered
you.

Together,
in this
city, just
us two.

We laughed,
and smoked
and drank
too much beer.

Both of us
wishing you
were still
fucking here.

Xxx

(Originally Posted 08.09.2019)

2

Pop. 612,040 (+1)

In this city

I once called home

I know I could never

Feel alone

Coming Home

It’s not
that I
love this
city

It’s that
I love
who I am
when I’m here

(Originally Posted 08.09.2019)

0

‘Nothing Else To Give’

I booked the day off work today

As I knew I’d want to be alone

I wouldn’t want to see anyone

Or even speak on the phone

It’s not that I’m ungrateful

Or I don’t appreciate the intent

But people just don’t realise

That, emotionally, I’m spent

Rest In Peace

Someone
sent me
flowers
today

And for
their
kindness
I was
thankful

But
I still
chucked
them
in the
bin

For of
condolences
I’ve had
a tankful

(Originally Posted 08.09.2020)

2

Random #236

“And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again”

0

Taking Back Control

I know what you did

That day

How you made sure

Your pain

Stopped

Were You Afraid Of Dying?

It
was
awful
to see
you
waste
away

Neither
of us
knowing
why

Now
my
only
hope

Is
you
are
smoking
dope

At
that
great
gig in
the
sky

Xxx

(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)

2

Death Trumps Divorce

It doesn’t compare

It’s not the same thing

I lost the man completely

Not just my wedding ring

That Morning

You
can
try
to
imagine

But
you
can
never
know

How
much
it
tore
me
apart

When
I had
to let
him go

Xxx

(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)

0

Letting It Out

Sometimes it is sadness

Sometimes it’s deep frustration

But mostly it’s just

That I still feel lost

In this whole fucking situation

Hold Me

Words
can
not
describe
the
hurt

As my
tears
fall
onto
your
shirt

Xxx

(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)

2

This

I reach
for his
hand

Every
day

But
nothing
makes

The
pain
go away

That

It’s
just not
right

That you
won’t be
here when
I look
tonight

It’s
just not
fair

That I’ll
reach for
your hand
and it won’t
be there

(Originally Posted 07.09.2019)

4

#25 The Conductor

I wrote this one

On a train

Making my way

Back home again

I remember she asked me

Why it was I cried

‘Because he’s dead’

I replied

The Removal Van

All
my dreams
are dead.

All that’s left
is this room
inside my head,

Where you
once lived.

I wish
you’d move
back in.

(Originally Posted 07.09.2019)

0

Delaying The Inevitable

No more for me

He said

That was the wife on the phone

I think that I’ll stay out

She said

As there’s no one for me at home

Temptress

We
really
shouldn’t
do this

She
said

If it’s
something
you’ll
regret

I won’t
know
until
we’re
done

He
said

And I
haven’t
started
yet

(Originally Posted 06.09.2020)

0

‘Til Death Us Do Part

Nineteen years of ups and downs

Of keeping the wolves at bay

But looking back now

We always got through, somehow

Doing things our own way

A Living Hell

Damned am I
who has been
torn in two

Damned am I
who fell in
love with you

(Originally Posted 06.09.2019)

0

The Black Baccara

It can be hard to stop

And smell the roses

When you’d rather

Be six feet under them

The Black Dog

When I heard
the black dog
barking outside

I knew I had
nowhere left
to hide

When I heard
the black dog
at my door

I knew I didn’t
have the strength
to fight anymore

Now I hear
the black dog
on my shoulder

And all I feel
is relief
that it’s over

(Originally Posted 06.09.2019)

0

A Poor Substitute

I made one into a pillow

To keep with me in bed

But there’s no point in denying

I’ve spent many a night crying

Wishing it was you instead

Your Shirt

I still have it.

Your shirt.

I can feel it.

I can smell it.

I just wish you were still here.

Wearing it.

(Originally Posted 06.09.2019)

4

Time Off

It takes me by surprise

Every year

If I can just yet through that day,

I think,

Then everthing will be ok

But it’s not

A Hard Week

Now that
the darkness
has descended

All my
happiness
has ended

Deep into
my soul
I have delved

And all
future plans
I have shelved

(Originally Posted 06.09.2019

0

Stuck

I know it comes evey year

Yet I’m still no more prepared

As much as I try

I’m still left high and dry

With any chance to move on impaired

That Day

I’m scared
of what
that day
will bring,

As I
know it’s
approaching
fast.

Even if
it’s the
start of
my future,

There’s no
way of
forgetting
my past.

(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)

0

Bien Sûr

Well you certainly seem happier

He said

This is the busiest I think you’ve been

I’ve always done my best work

She said

When fuelled by carbs and caffeine

Auberge de Lanouaille

You
should
use
this
time
to
think

He
said

About
what
it is
you
want

Only
if you
bring
me
coffee

She
said

And
a hot
buttered
croissant

(Originally Posted 05.09.2020)

2

Peacetime

None of us won the battle

And certainly not the war

But my conscience has been

Squeaky fucking clean

Since showing you all the door

Acrimony

Whilst
trying
to fix
this
unconscionable
mess,
I’ve
realised
it’s all
fucking
pointless,
anyway.

Nobody wins.

(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)

0

Uninstalled

I knew you were only sending it

As you still wanted to scrap

So just to make sure

You got nothing more

I simply deleted the app

Digital Olive Branch

You can request
my friendship
all you like

But it’ll
never be
accepted

You can send,
send and
send it again

But it’ll
always be
rejected

(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)

6

Dull As Dishwater

It matters not

How I seem

Through these words

I’ve penned

For if we were to ever

Meet in person

You’d be disappointed

In the end

Telling Tales

Why don’t you
stay here
a while,
he said,
and have
a cup
of tea

But I don’t
understand,
she said,
why would
you want
to talk
to me?

You’ve got
a tale to
tell, he said,
and I’d
like to
find out
more

Well you’ll
be sad
to realise,
she said,
that I’m
nothing
but a bore

(Originally Posted 04.09.2019)

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