Why are you so depressing
He said
Why are your words so dark
Because my life is fucking distressing
She said
And so, therefore’s, my art
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Why are you so depressing
He said
Why are your words so dark
Because my life is fucking distressing
She said
And so, therefore’s, my art
IF ONLY
Why are you still fucking talking
Because the words out of my mouth have meaning
Yet your homespun philosophy bores me
At least I don’t feel compelled by needless preening
Do you think that this is it?
That our relationship is built on shit ?
Well, it’s you that cannot follow instruction
You know what ? I’m done, I quit !
I hope that isn’t an attempt at seduction
If only.
Written in collaboration with @Matt at aprolificpotpourri.wordpress.com ©2023
“Touch And Go”
were i to ask
for truth,
which would
you spin?
The kind that
pushes
back…
or lets me in?
Written in collaboration with @grumpygorman at handsinthegarden.com ©2023
“Untitled”
time coasts past
like clouds of
dream
sweet spoken words
lost in-between
the truth’s not
really what it
seems,
so often bared,
but seldom
seen.
Written in collaboration with @grumpygorman at handsinthegarden.com ©2023
“But My Eyes Still See”
not every quiet’s
golden,
some grow rank
with mold,
blue blooming
with decay
with truths we’ve
fail to say.
Written in collaboration with @grumpygorman at handsinthegarden.com ©2023
“Not Too Rough”
she said she wasn’t
built for this
but was too smitten
to resist the risk,
stating “let’s just see what
happens”
numb from being flattered
and then flattened
by the well meaning
hands
of some overly
eager
man.
Written in collaboration with @grumpygorman at handsinthegarden.com ©2023
You’ve
been
on my
mind
today
More
than
any
other
time
If only
it had
inspired
something
epic
And
not this
fucking
awful
rhyme
My
chest
tightens
As my
eyes
swell
At yet
another
day
Burning
in
hell
As cold as the sun,
As warm as the snow.
As loud as the silence,
As high as the low.
This could be
the meaning of life,
For all I fucking know.
‘A day without laughter is a day wasted…’
Oh fuck off Charlie,
Life’s far too complicated.
It
will
always
be
you
Those
piercing
eyesThat
matte
black
beakI wonder
what
secrets
you
would
yieldIf
only
you
could
speak
All this blood
All that gore
I mustn’t spill
Too much more
Wide
awake
night
after
night
screaming
at the
ghostly
twilight
trying
with all
of my
might
to summon
the courage
to continue
the fight
I wandered lonely as a cloud
Screaming the words fuck you out loud
As, like the night, she walked in beauty
I wished someone would just come along and shoot me
As I, in the wood, took the road less travelled
I sat and cried as my mind unravelled
And as we talked between the rooms
I closed my eyes and succumbed to the fumes
Once again
it’s that
time of day
Do I get
out of bed
or stay
Here all
afternoon
and wonder
Why our
hearts were
torn asunder
There
is so
much
we are
never
told
If only you would
If only you wouldn’t
If only you could
If only you couldn’t
If only I did
If only I didn’t
If only I had
If only I hadn’t
Whilst
trying
to fix
this
hopeless
mess,
I’ve
realised,
it’s all
just
fucking
pointless
anyway.
Nobody wins.
You have
to stop
talking
to me
I know
you’re
not really
there
Are you..?
You’ll always carry it with you,
The pain.You can try to wrap it differently.
Use an alternative box,
Choose a shiny wrapping paper.
Secure it with ribbon,
Even glue on a fucking huge bow,
If you like.But you’ll still carry it with you,
The pain.Like a gaudy present nobody wants to open.
An unwanted gift you can never return.
Days off
are always
difficult.
There’s
so much more
time to fill,
without you.
So many
memories
of what we
used to do.
I’d rather
be at
work.
At least
there, I
get paid
to be
miserable.
You can stop writing your pithy little poems, for your soul mate isn’t dead.
Your tears need no longer flow.
Your heart can beat again.
It’s an April Fool,
You fool.
I tried really hard today.
To laugh.
To be normal.
To forget.
And I managed, for a while.
But still I lie in bed here, freezing, hoping to go to sleep and dream of you.
I’m not sure how I’ll feel when I’m forced to remember you, tomorrow.
Forced to remember those torturous nights.
Forced to remember those heart breaking conversations.
They were so private, so personal, so intense.
Those words only ever destined to leave your lips and reach my ears.
There will be others there that feel the same way about their loved one, I’m sure.
And there will be others there just to watch. To steal someone else’s story to tell as their own.
Fuck them.
I’m not sure how I’ll feel when I’m forced to remember you, tomorrow.
I just wish you were still here.
And that I didn’t have to go.
You must try harder, he says.
Harder to smile,
Harder to laugh,
Harder to forgive,
Harder to forget,
Harder to live again,
Harder to love again.
You must try harder, he says.
I can’t, she whispers
I’m sorry.
You can take a tablet to halt a head ache.
You can eat a sandwich to settle a queasy stomach.
You can sleep a while to revive your weary bones.
But the self loathing?
That shit lingers on inside your head for days. And there’s nothing you can do to help that.
God, hangovers are awful.
Your words help guide my wayward step
and shine light in to my darkened heart
Your smile breaks my fall to the kitchen floor
and stems the tears in my haunted eyes
Your touch quietens the incessant voice in my head
and replenishes my embittered soul
You allow me to believe that love might be possible again
One day
It’s better that I’m living without you
Rather than you living without me
You’d never cope with this pain
It has wrecked me
But it would have destroyed you
And I would have hated that