Letting It Out

Sometimes it is sadness

Sometimes it’s deep frustration

But mostly it’s just

That I still feel lost

In this whole fucking situation

Hold Me

Words
can
not
describe
the
hurt

As my
tears
fall
onto
your
shirt

Xxx

(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)

07/09/2022 2

From The Back Row

Crying because I was happy

Crying because I was sad

Crying because I had lost

The best friend I’d ever had

Joy and Sadness

Resisting
the urge
to cry
today
is futile.

(Originally Posted 24.05.2019)

24/05/2022 2

Shut In

As if all I do

Is wander around

And weep into the rain

When I really feel blue

To my bed I am bound

As that is my real domain

Grey Days

I love
walking
on grey days

The raindrops
land on my face
and mingle with
my tears

Hiding them
from prying
eyes

(Originally Posted 02.05.2019)

02/05/2022 7

‘Happy Or Sad?’

There’s not much I can add

To this one

As the conflict still exists

To this day

Yes, there are days

When I can laugh

But those tears aren’t ever

Too far away

Conflict

I laughed today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.

I cried today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.

As I soldier on, as best I can,
this simultaneous existence
of conflicting emotions
is slowly killing me.

(Originally Posted 10.04.2019)

10/04/2022 9

‘So You’re With Her…’

As I watched you

From the window

Hands pressed

Against the glass

My tears fell

As I knew full well

You were never

Coming back

18/10/2021 18

Triggered

They’re always there

Behind my eyes

Just waiting

For their time to pour

Anything and everything

Can set them free

With no reason why

Or even wherefore

22/09/2021 32

Abandoned

As I sit here alone

And my tears glisten

I just wish I knew

Someone who’d listen

13/09/2021 30

A King Sized Longing

Lying in bed

Late at night

I turn over

With a sigh

I reach out

With my hand

But it’s empty

Where you’d lie

Xxx

31/05/2021 13

It’s Not Only The Rain That Pours

As night falls

So does my mood

And I can’t stop crying

Again

24/05/2021 22

I Won’t Forget

I still cry for him at night

You know

There’ll never be a time

I won’t

Just because you’re not here

To wipe away

My tears

Doesn’t mean

I don’t

21/05/2021 15

Memorial Memories

It’s been two years since you left me

Sitting all alone in that church

Cold, confused and crying

So painfully in the lurch

But it’s not really his death you know,

That has been the most pernicious

It’s how the rest of you have chosen to be

So incredibly fucking malicious

28/03/2021 10

Self Worth

I’d give you my heart,
But it’s not worth me trying

I’d give you my body,
But it’s not worth your touch

I’d give you my soul,
But it’s not worth my crying

I’d give you my life,
But it’s not worth very much

(Originally Posted 19.04.2019)