I knew it wouldn’t work
But I said yes anyway
I just needed to prove
That one afternoon
Couldn’t chase
My demons away
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I knew it wouldn’t work
But I said yes anyway
I just needed to prove
That one afternoon
Couldn’t chase
My demons away
Had another day
Like this yesterday
After quite a few
Of feeling ok
The only way
Was in bed to lay
In order to
Keep those demons at bay
Who Gives A Fuck? (Not Me)
What do I do
Now all hope is gone
And I am left here
On my own
Somehow still alive
But gasping for air
Unable to thrive
Yet unwilling to care
(Originally Posted 05.04.2020)
4am
And my demons
Want revenge
Again
Maybe I could see a friend
Or give them a call instead
It must be better than wrestling
With these demons in my head
Words don’t cut it
Anymore
So it’s back to the knives
Instead
I really thought
I was over this
But the trauma demon
Has to be fed
She’s back again,
the little control freak,
whispering from my shoulder.She never really goes away,
despite my efforts to brush her aside
or however much I grow older.I’ve never once turned to look
at her whilst I try hard to
drown out her speech.But I never forget
she’s there, berating me,
and bleeding me like a leech.(Originally Posted 04.08.2019)
In the time it took
To load the gun
He realised how
His demons won
A week
off workWhat’s
the pointDrink
a beerSmoke
a jointThat’s
nothing newI do it
every dayIt’s all
I haveKeeping my
demons at bay
Resist
that
urge
To
binge
and
purge
Put
the box
back
under
the bed
Before
the
demons
emerge
And
your
emotions
splurge
Find a
pen and
start
writing
instead
Do you
ever wish
you could
give up?
Say right,
that’s it,
I’ve had
enough!
I’m done
with all
this fucking
shit
I’m finally
going
through
with it!
Well,
that’s what
I think
every day
I find
those words
so easy
to say
And now,
it seems,
the demons
have won
For I can
say that I’m
officially
done