If time
isn’t on
our side
Then
what the
fuck is?
If it’s
all out
of our
hands
Then
what’s
the point
in this?
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
If time
isn’t on
our side
Then
what the
fuck is?
If it’s
all out
of our
hands
Then
what’s
the point
in this?
So now
you’re
leaving
me too
Now
you have
broken
my heart?
Well
fuck off
back to
her then
I’ll
soon
tear you
apart
If you
can’t
bear
to see
the hurt
you’ve
caused
Then
feel
free
to
look
away
For I
know
that
guilt
will
fuck
you up
And
you’ll
face
the
truth
one day
It
only
hurts
moreThe
second
time
around
It’s
not
self harming
It’s
self
soothing
I do
love
youBut I
don’t
like
you
very
muchYour
words
leave
me
reelingAnd
cold
to the
touch
We
only
live
onceAnd
that’s
far too
longTo
spend
with
you
I can’t
wait for
the day
When I
no longer
wince
At
every
glimpse
Of
your
photo
I wish
it was
different
for you
She
said
And things
didn’t have
to be
this way
Don’t
you
worry
about me
He
said
I’m sure
I’ll live
to fight
another day
I think
I love youHe
saidBut I
cannot waitIf you
loved meShe
saidYou wouldn’t
hesitate
Throw down
your cashPlace
your betWe’ll soon
find outWho deserves
what they get
I loved you,
When no one else did.
Remember that.
It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyesI felt
every
ache
of your
heartIf only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feelBut
I have
no wisdom
left to
impart
It looks
like this
situation
I may have
misjudgedAs not
once did I
think it
would hurt
this much
It
hurts
to smile
After
a
while
So you
start
to pout
As your
insides
turn out
It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friendIt’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again
I’ve walked
along
this road
before
Feeling
lonely
and
insecure
At least
this time
I know
for sure
You
cannot
hurt me
anymore
You all think
I’ve forgotten,
but you
have no idea.
I could never
be that tasteless,
or so fucking
insincere.
I’m done
with
this shithole
todayI’m packing
up and
running
awayFar
from where
the sun
can catch meAnd to where
the pleasure
of pain
distracts me
Batter me,
Shatter me,I don’t matter, me.
Clatter me,
Scatter me,I just don’t matter, me.
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck
Who knows why I do these things.
Even I don't know why I do these things!
I know they are stupid, pathetic and immature.
And yet I still do them.
I ruin peoples lives.
I fuck up people's lives because my life is fucked up too.
It's like a revenge I love to wreak, but feel guilty about,
later. When it's over.
I just don't understand myself.
I make these things happen.
I lure people into my trap, spit them out
and then ignore the consequences.
Sometimes I wonder why I drink too much, smoke too much
and delve into substance abuse...
It's to cheat myself from the truth.
I am a fuck up.
I am a fuck up who fucks up other people's lives,
just for the fucking sake of it.
You have no idea how bored I have become.
Of fucking that is.
I've been here so many, many times before
I'm just fucking bored now.
Bored with the fucking lot of it.
It's pointless now.
Not that there ever was a point, obviously.
Je Suis Morte.
I Fucking Wish.
Why did you leave me here?
Here alone to fend for myself?
Why couldn't you have stayed to comfort me through the years we both had left on this planet?
You were the only one who ever understood me.
You were the only one I could ever understand.
I loved you, I still love you,
but I can't ever forgive you for leaving me.
Discarding me like an expired bus pass.
That's all I was to you.
A ticket you used to transport you to your next destination.
We could have been so good together Jimmy, but you walked out on me.
And I'll never forgive you for that.
'Mum, Dad, a boy was killed tonight'.