Do you really look past
The colour of my skin
And try hard to see
Who I am within
I don’t believe you
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Do you really look past
The colour of my skin
And try hard to see
Who I am within
I don’t believe you
You asked me
To run away with you
So, hesitantly, I did
And it was fun
Until you left
You fucking lying prick
They promised I’d feel better by now
That these pills would have kicked in
Well they fucking lied
As my brain is still fried
And my heart belongs in the bin
Presenter 1: ‘And the award for the biggest lie of them all goes to…’
(drum roll)
Presenters 1 & 2 in unison: ‘…I’m Fine!’
(applause)
Voiceover: ‘And collecting the award tonight are Honestly and I Promise, who both played a key role in supporting I’m Fine in the 2020 film ‘How Are You Today’
Tell yourself you’re moving on
And they might just start
To believe it
But you and I know
This is all just for show
As you’re still drowning
In shit
Looking through old photos
It’s only now I’m struck
By how much your eyes
Betray your lies
And your smile is fake as fuck
I don’t feel better
I haven’t forgotten
I’ve just stopped telling you
How I feel
You’ll say you miss him terribly
As you bleat and cry and whine
But all I’ll remember is when
You couldn’t stand to be near him then
Even half the fucking time
It
didn’t
mean
anything
thenAnd
it
certainly
doesn’t
nowSo
stick
your
apologyUp
your
arseYou
spiteful
little
cow
I know you better
Than I know myself
So please stop trying
To be someone else
When
I need
youYou’re
never
thereIt
still
hurts,
you
knowThat
you
don’t
care
Both a rhymer and a charmer
She only sticks around for drama
Writing with a screw loose or two
She isn’t scared of an expletive or few
Mourning the loss of her true love
She knows there’s no-one up above
Kind, caring and empathetic
She isn’t very sympathetic
Often scathing but often witty
She has a penchant for the nitty gritty
Sometimes joking sometimes smart
She weeps with her broken heart
Enamoured with music, wine and song
She knows with those she can’t go wrong
You
wore
your
roll
neck
jumper
So
you
thought
I wouldn’t
see
But
believe
me I
know
full
well
Those
marks
weren’t
left
by me
If
life is
funny
sometimes
Then
why
can’t
I contain
my laughter
It’s the
same as
all that
bullshit
they say
About
living
happily
ever
after
Remember
When you said
You’d never leave me
And you lied?
Well,
Fuck you
You
tell
your
truthAnd
I’ll
tell
mineBut
we
both
knowWho
crossed
the
line
Someone
once
told
me
It’ll
all be
OK in
the end
That
person
lied
to me
And
is no
longer
my friend
Give
me a
thumbs
up
And
I’ll
give
you
two
All
whilst
silently
Whispering
fuck
you
Lying to
myself
is bad
enough
But
lying
to you
hurts
more
But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful
That’s
for
fucking
sure
They
say
you’re
not on
your
own
But
it
certainly
feels
like
it
Over
time
they
all
fade
away
While
you’re
still
wading
through
shit
It’s
not
really
you I
loveIt’s
that
when
I am
with
youYou
make
it
easy
to
believeThe
lies
I tell
myself
are
true
I’d
rather
never
see
you
again
Than
see
you
burn
in
hell
So
if
I
just
move
myself
away
Then
I’ll
never
have
to
tell
You
claim
to be
perfect
But
yet you
were ill
equipt
To show
any real
love or
compassion
So to
me your
crown has
slipped
Amongst
the worst
of the
liesAre the
ones
I tell
myselfFor the
safety
of my
sanityAnd the
goodness
of my
health
I wish I
could say
I was sorryI wish
I could
say I careBut I’m
actually
notAnd I
really
don’tSo to lie
would
be unfair
I
see
you
standing
up there
Before
those
huge
stained
glasses
Conjuring
up
your
scripture
Designed
to
terrify
the
masses
You
may
well
fool
some
people
Maybe
the ill
or weak
of mind
But
I’ll
be free
of you
one day
Leaving
the
bullshit
you
preach
behind
Who do you
think you are?
You malicious
little cow
This time you’ve
gone too far
Surely no one will
believe you now
Just
close
your
eyes
and
count
to ten
I’ll
take
you to
heaven
and
back
again
What
happens
when the
laughter
stops
When
that
penny
finally
drops
When we
wake up
tomorrow
with a
raging
hangover
And that
stomach
churning
guilt
takes
over
It’s
easy
to lieWhen
no one
is listening
Happiness
doesn’t
come for
freeFor that
you need
to have
moneyWhy should
you expect
anything
moreIf you are
living
amongst
the poor
I
wonder
what
you’ve
told himNow
I’m
no
longer
thereHave
you
bothered
to tell
the truth?Or just
lied and
said I
no longer
care?
Spread
all the
lies
And
bullshit
you want
But it’ll
always
be you
That
acted like
a cunt
Do you want to hear the truth?
Good.
Because I don’t want to tell it.
Tell all
the lies
about me
you like
Spin your
twisted
tales
of spite
But half
truths won’t
make people
like you
And they
certainly
don’t make
you right
You say
it’s not me,
it’s you.But
you’re
a liar.And we
both know
that’s true.
Don’t
want
the
truth?
Then
don’t
ask
me.
I
will
not
lie,
To
protect
your
sanity.
You said
you wanted
to leave
And I
didn’t beg
you to stay
Now we
both lie to
someone else
And that’s
the price
we pay
Please
answer
my
questionInstead
of
avoiding
itAnd
try to
be
honestInstead
of
this
bullshit
I
told you
a lie
yesterday
I said
I felt better
and that I
am okay
When the
actual truth
is I hope
and pray
That I
won’t live
to see
another day
There’s no such
thing as happily
ever afterThere is only
heartbreak
and disasterWhat you see
in their films
is all a lieFor life’s a
bitch and
then you die
I lie
in your bed
and I lie
to your face.I am
a public fraud
and a private
disgrace.
How the
fuck am
I going
to get
through
today
when I
can’t even
open my
eyes?Why the
fuck am
I even
bothering
today
when
my life
is just
a myriad
of lies?
It’s easier to say I’m alright, rather then I’m anxious.
It’s easier to say I’m okay, rather than I’m outraged.
It’s easier to say I’m better, rather than I’m broken.
It’s easier to say I’m good, rather than I’m grieving.
It’s easier to say I’m well, rather than I’m wasted.
It’s easier to say I’m fine, rather than I’m fucked.
There is no better place.
Those we love don’t walk beside us.
There are no other rooms.
You will stand at that grave and weep.
There are more than five stages.
There are more than two parts.
Tears are not silent.
There is no peace or comfort to find.
Time heals nothing.
You’ll always walk alone.
And grief is like a fucking tsunami,
so good luck learning to swim in that.