The
pain
is
buried
so
deep
She
said
I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
surface
Then
let’s
just
leave
it
there
He
said
Breaking
your
heart
again
isn’t
worth
it
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
The
pain
is
buried
so
deep
She
said
I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
surface
Then
let’s
just
leave
it
there
He
said
Breaking
your
heart
again
isn’t
worth
it
Can we
leave it
there?
She
asks
As I
cannot
take
much
more
You’re
damn
right
He
replies
As he
edges
towards
the door
It’s
not
that
I’ve
started
to talkIt’s
more
that
you’ve
never
listened
Resist
that
urge
To
binge
and
purge
Put
the box
back
under
the bed
Before
the
demons
emerge
And
your
emotions
splurge
Find a
pen and
start
writing
instead
Thank
you
for the
offer
But I
really
must
say no
There is
no need
for you
to listen
To any
more of
my tales
of woe
I’ve been
trying
so hard
to break
this chainSo I’ve
drawn on
my arms
with Biro
againAt least,
this time,
it’s just
a tokenAnd my
skin,
for now,
remains
unbroken
This shadow
Is too hard
to explain
But it’s
reared it’s
ugly head again
Wailing and
moaning
and gnashing
it’s teeth
The only
way out
is to
hide
beneath
Hoping
and
praying
one day
it’ll
let me go
And I’ll
be freed
from
the pain
of this
enduring
sorrow
I thought
talking
would make
it easierBut if
anything
it’s made
it worseIt seems
there’s
nothing
I can doTo rid
myself
of this
curse
I laughed today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.
I cried today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.
As I soldier on,
as best I can,
the simultaneous existence
of conflicting emotions,
slowly kills me.