Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Just keep calm
Don’t let them see
They’ll leave you alone
If you just agree
Rest in power
Rest in peace
For at least now
Your pain has ceased
Xxx
So
it’s
been
a yearOf
your
latest
treatmentYet
I still
don’t
feelAny
fucking
different
I
really
can’t
explain
itThis
feeling
I have
insideI
just
don’t
want
to be
hereAnd,
God
knows,
I’ve
tried
If
all
your
pills
Don’t
cure
my
ills
Then
why
bother
to
collect
them
If
it’s
a waste
of time
Both
yours
and
mine
Then
perhaps
I should
reject
them
Another
day
Another
pill
Will
this
one
make
me
Feel
less
ill?
So
this
is
it
Lying
in bed
all day
again
Wine
and
cigarettes
my only
friend
I’m so
bored
of this
shit
I
could
make
myself
sick
I
really
am
nothing
But a
nauseating
prick
I don’t
know if
you’re
aware
She
said
But
I’ve
been
feeling
rather
down
Let me
fetch my
notebook
He
said
Reaching
forward
with a
frown
I’m
glad
you
find
it
helpful
But I
certainly
do not
What’s
the
point
in
telling
tales
When
you’ve
already
lost
the
plot?
How
many
more
times
Must
I walk
this
path
Surely
I’ve
done it
enough
times now
To
find
my own
way
back
I’ll
see
you
nowRoom
number
threeSo,
what’s
the
matterDon’t
fucking
ask me!
I’d
like to
cancel my
appointment
I don’t
want
to see
you today
What’s
the point
in getting
out of bed
When
you can’t
help me
anyway?
Please
give me
another
pill to
swallowFor I
don’t
want to
wake up
tomorrow
I think
these pills
have
stopped
workingThey
have
become
just a
tokenFor
they no
longer
take away
the hurtingFrom a
heart
that is
already
broken
I think
we’ll
increase
your dose,She
said,To stop
you
feeling so
morose.I’ll
easily
give it
a try,I
said,But I’m
pretty sure
the end
is nigh.
I’ve been
trying
so hard
to break
this chainSo I’ve
drawn on
my arms
with Biro
againAt least,
this time,
it’s just
a tokenAnd my
skin,
for now,
remains
unbroken
As I fall
apart
a little
more
each dayI wonder
if I’ll
always
feel
this wayHow
much
lower
can I
sink?Who will
pull me
back
from the
brink?
Do I
feel
better
It’s
hard
to tell
As I’m
already
trapped
In this
living
hell
You have
no idea
what’s
going onInside
this
grieving
heart of
mine
If I
clench
my jaw,
anymore,
my teeth
will
crumble
to dust.
It’s so
unfair,
that for
my own
welfare,
these
tablets
are a must.
I took
the first
one this
morningThe rest
won’t be
as hard
to swallowSoon
my belly
will be
fullAnd I’ll
no longer
feel so
hollow