You
win
I
lose
Ain’t
that
The
fucking
truth
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
You
win
I
lose
Ain’t
that
The
fucking
truth
‘Very few of us are what we seem…’
– Agatha Christie
Lying to
myself
is bad
enough
But
lying
to you
hurts
more
But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful
That’s
for
fucking
sure
If
only
I was
wasting
away
Maybe
it would
be easier
to explain
Why my
heart is
broken and
my tongue
is tied
And
I live
each day
in pain
It’s
hard to
write
it all
down
What
I’ve
been
feeling
inside
But now
is the
time to
start
again
For the
truth
I’ll no
longer
hide
Sometimes
my words
are so
savage
I even
surprise
myself
It’s like
the page
I must
ravage
With no
care at
all for
yourself
I can’t
believe
it’s taken
All this
time to
see
That the
bully is
not you
But,
actually,
it’s me
I wish
that
I could
tell you
more
But
I know
I am
not
allowed
For
our
moral
code
dictates
That
my
feelings
I must
enshroud
I am not
who you
think I amSo please
don’t look
up to meIf you
only knew
the truthYou’d cut
down our
family tree
It’s
not
that
you’re
wrong
It’s
just
that
I’m
right
“If you haven’t got anything nice
to say,
don’t say anything at all.”
Silence.
It’s
not
that
I’ve
started
to talkIt’s
more
that
you’ve
never
listened
I’m
too
scared
to go
out
today
For
the
dark
thoughts
haven’t
gone away
I’m
worried
I’m so
far into
this
slump
That I’ll
be left
with no
choice
but to
jump
Is
this
really
true
She
asked
Are
you
sure
this
isn’t
a dream?
I
promise
you
with
all my
heart
He
said
Some
things
really
are
what
they
seem
What
happens
when the
laughter
stops
When
that
penny
finally
drops
When we
wake up
tomorrow
with a
raging
hangover
And that
stomach
churning
guilt
takes
over
I
suppose
for your
wickedness
to seeThey
would
all need
laser eye
surgery
‘It’s A Wonderful Life’
#fakenews
I think
I love youHe
saidBut I
cannot waitIf you
loved meShe
saidYou wouldn’t
hesitate
Just piss
off with your
Christmas shitAll this
Ho, Ho,
Fucking Ho…Not
everyone
appreciates itSome of us
are depressed,
you know
It’s
easy
to lieWhen
no one
is listening
I
wonder
what
you’ve
told himNow
I’m
no
longer
thereHave
you
bothered
to tell
the truth?Or just
lied and
said I
no longer
care?
Another
day passes
And I
miss you
like mad
As through
rose tinted
glasses
I remember
what we had
Xxx
I’ll always
be the
better
person
But
there’s
no need
to sweat it
I’ll
always
be hanging
around
To make
sure you
don’t
forget it
I wish
I could
see in
myself,She
said,What you’ve
seen since
our affair
began.For that
you’d need
to love
yourself,He
said,And I
don’t
think
you can.
‘A day without laughter is a day wasted…’
Oh fuck off Charlie,
Life’s far too complicated.
They say
you can
never go
home
againAnd I’m
starting
to believe
that’s
trueFor all
that resides
here now
is a world
of painAnd
far too
many
memories
of you
You should
talk more,
he said,
open up
about
how you
feelIt’s not
possible,
she said,
for it’s
not my
secret to
reveal
Do you want to hear the truth?
Good.
Because I don’t want to tell it.
We all
do bad
things
sometimesYet not
everyone
is made
to payBut while
you’ll never
admit your
crimesJust know
the truth
will out
one day
You never
see the
worst of
my illness
because
I hide it
from you
For you
to know
the truth
about me
would just
tear me
in two
So I’ll
paint
on a
smile and
pretend
that I’m
fine
For
doing so
protects
both
your
sanity
and mine
People leave.
Fact.
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