What Little Charmers Are Made Of

I don’t just bitch and whine

She said

I can also be quite nice

That’s why you’re a friend of mine

He said

For both the sugar and the spice


Please Don’t Go

If
I can’t
speak
to you
anymore

Then
who
else is
going to
listen?

There’s
not
many
that
could
tolerate

My
incessant
whining
and
bitching

(Originally Posted 22.07.2020)

Harsh But Fair

If I thought you were capable

Of genuine emotion

Then of course

I would offer to help

But as it is

It’s just crocodile tears

So you can go fuck yourself


Water Off A Duck’s Back

If
you
weep
a little
louder

They
might
hear
you
at the
back

Just
don’t
expect
that
I’ll
listen

As
on me
your
tears
fall
flat

(Originally Posted 22.07.2020)

Not Wandering Anymore

Out with the old

And in with the new

Time for me to find

Someone better than you


Rose Tinted Glasses

Sometimes a
wander down
memory lane
is no bad
thing

So long
as you can
remember
your way
back

(Originally Posted 22.07.2019)

The Wrong Vibes

Perhaps it’s because I’m boring

Or maybe it’s just that I’m mad

But whatever I project

I’m easy to reject

Hence why my social life is so bad


Detached

It
matters
not

If
I go
out

Or if
I stay
at home

As
either
way

Suffice
it to
say

I will
always
end up
alone

(Originally Posted 21.07.2020)

Flogging A Dead Horse

I don’t know why I think

You’d be the same as me

If you were taken to the brink

Of complete insanity

Because you would never feel that way

You are not the same as me

You are far too fucking selfish

And devoid of empathy


The Switch

Why
don’t
you

Swap
places
with me

Sink
to the
depths

That
I have
been

For
if you
were to
suffer

The
way
I do

Perhaps
you
would
feel

The
same
way
too

(Originally Posted 21.07.2020)

How I Got My Name

I couldn’t have put it

Any more sincerely

As this is me

All over really


The Knight

You come charging in

On your white horse

Thinking you’ll save the world,

Of course

But you’ve nothing to offer

Under all that armour

You don’t fool me,

You little charmer

(Originally Posted 21.07.2019)

(Not So) Super Glue

Misery loves company

Isn’t that what they say?

Well you and I know

We feel that with gusto

So neither of us

Will be walking way


Bonding

Admit it.

You hate this as much as I do.

It’s what keeps us together.

(Originally Posted 20.07.2019)

It Isn’t Always Metaphorical

I’m not quite sure

If this needs any more

As my request is perfectly clear

Sometimes my implication

Requires no explanation

Just as is the case here


Submission

Ah well

What the heck

Put your hand

Around my neck

And squeeze

(Originally Posted 20.07.2020)

Putting It Politely

I looked you up

On Facebook

And see you all

Still play that game

Hiding behind

Fake smiles and lies

The pretence

Still the same

Now you’ve heard me say

I walked away

And I’m infinitely glad

I did

As if I had to pose

In any more those photos

I fear by now

I’d have flipped my lid


Picture Perfect

Continue to enjoy

Your sweet little lives

And act as you see fit

I’m just relieved

I no longer suffer

The toxicity that lies

Beneath it

(Originally Posted 20.07.20)

Out Of The Game

I wish
I could
find
myself
again

But
I’ve
no idea
where to
look


Hide & Seek

When
I think
back now
I realise

I lost
myself
way before
I lost you

(Originally Posted 20.07.2019)

Revolving Doors

Starting again

With eyes wide shut

More of a chance

I’ll avoid the glut


Different This Time

Starting again

With eyes wide open

Less of a chance

Hearts will be broken

(Originally Posted 19.07.2021)

‘I Don’t Need A Gun To Blow My Mind’

This was just one route

That I’d considered

Amongst the many others

I had planned

I’d completely lost the plot

I think

In a way not many

Would understand

It seems that I

Had turned that choice

Into some kind of

Romantic notion

Which, it seems

For a while at least

Is how I coped

With my emotions

It took me some time

To best those thoughts

And to comprehend

The brutality of falling

But that’s not to say

They truly went away

And all I’m doing now, really

Is stalling


Look Out!

Falling

Tumbling

Through the air

Wondering

What it’s like

Down there

People standing

Faces aghast

Yet I don’t care

As I breathe my last

(Originally Posted 19.07.2020)

Figments

I often wonder

Reading back

Just who these people are

As their conversations

And confrontations

Make up some of my best work by far


Help Me

I never used to be like this

She said

I actually used to be brave

What was it that happened to you

He asked

So much so that you would cave

The world happened

She replied

But you wouldn’t understand

Why don’t you try me

He implored

As he reached for her hand

(Originally Posted 19.07.2019)

Save Yourself

Who do I think I’m kidding

She said

There’s no way that I could help you

You’d better off going it alone

She said

There’s more chance you’ll make it though


Ter(rain)

I’ll
take
your
hand

If
you
are
frightened

I’ll
hold
you
hair

If
you
feel
sick

I’ll
even
lead
you

To
the
path
of
enlightenment

If
you’re
really
fucking
quick

(Originally Posted 18.07.2020)

Poems From Another Time (Alt Version)

It’s like reading

Someone else’s words

Lines

From a different story

But the heartache and pain

Mine they’ll always remain

So for those, I will take the glory


Poems From Another Time

It’s like reading

Someone else’s words

Listening

To someone else’s story

But the heartache

And the pain

That’s still all mine

(Originally Posted 18.07.2021)

“Wait For Me, Wait For Me”

They tell you that

It’s time that heals

But time moves

So fucking slowly

In fact all time does do

Is exacerbate the issue

When you’re this heartbroken

And lonely


When Will It End?

Biting my nails
until they bleed,
doesn’t give me
the relief I need.

Scratching my skin
until it’s breaking,
doesn’t stop my
heart from aching.

When will it end,
this pain I’m feeling?
When does it stop,
when do I start healing?

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

Wednesday 8pm

So I’m back
home now,
after that
shit show

Only two
more days
of pretending
to go

Then it’s
the weekend,
so I’ll be free
to lament

And avoid
all people,
to my hearts
content


Wednesday 2.30am (Pt 1)

I can’t even
bear the thought
of what’s to
come tomorrow

No doubt
it’ll just be
more misery
and sorrow

Perhaps I’d
be better
off staying
in bed

Then I might
just escape
the thoughts
in my head

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)


Wednesday 11am (Pt 2)

So I managed,
in the end,
to get out of bed

And it’s been
shit so far,
just as I predicted

It seems I was right,
I should never
have tried

For I’ll never
escape this
pain inside

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

Spot On

Sometimes

When you’re trying to rhyme

You hit on something

Quite profound

I’m pretty sure

This was one of those

Where I cracked it

First time ’round


(Prick)ly

Not
the
best
at
being
loved

But
pretty
good
at
loving

Not
the
best
at
being
pushed

But
pretty
good
at
shoving

(Originally Posted 16.07.2020)

The Baton Nobody Wants

Now the worst has happened

And the handover is complete

There is nothing I can say or do

To help him back to his feet


Handover

You’ll
never
cope

She
said

When
this
happens
to you

I
know

He
said

I’m
dreading
it too

(Originally Posted 16.07.2020)

Despite What The Ads Said

There
were
times,
back
then,

When
I just
wasn’t
worth
it


Water

It’s
amazing
the
difference
a shower
can make

Inside
and
out…

(Originally Posted 16.07.2019)

The Moonlight Flit

It took so much

Out of her

Putting up

With all his flack

So one day

She just ran away

And never once

Looked back


The Time Waster

I cannot
believe
after all
this time
I’m still
stuck in
your trap.

Quietly
putting up
with your
bullshit and
listening
to all
your crap.

If I have
to spend one
more minute
with you
I think
that I’ll
be sick.

Never
before
have I
wasted my
time on
such an
arrogant
little prick.

(Originally Posted 16.07.2019)

A Cosmic Connection

I don’t know what I’d do

If I didn’t have you

You were the only one

To keep me sane

It was like you knew

What I was going through

And how to help me

Feel like me again


Grounding

Thanks for talking to me

He said

I hope it was of some worth

Thank you so much for listening

She said

It has brought me back to earth

(Originally Posted 15.07.2021)

At The End Of The Day

I hope never again

To find myself

Walking along this path

I’ve been through such a lot

That I’m pretty much shot

So I doubt I would make it back


Depression (Part 2)

Eat until you’re sick
Snap until you bruise
Run until you’re limp
Drink a shit load of booze

Spend until you’re skint
Sleep until you’re sore
Cry until you’re empty
Sleep around like a whore

Shout until you’re hoarse
Cut until you bleed
Work until you drop
Smoke a shedload of weed

Lie until you’re spent
Smile until you’re alone
Write until you’re wrung
Forget all you’ve ever known

(Originally Posted 15.07.2019)

Angling For Love

Am I supposed to just wait around

She said

Hoping that you will choose me?

Well, I’m worth way more than that

She said

And there’s plenty more fish in the sea


Torn

How will you know

She said

If it’s her or me?

I have no idea

He said

Confusedly

(Originally Posted 15.07.2020)

We Don’t Just Binge On Food

There was a time

In this journey of mine

When it wasn’t so much the where

Than with whom

Hardly in my prime

And with things far from fine

I just didn’t care

Who was in my bedroom


Sleeping Around

Try
as I
may

With
all
of my
might

I
have
no
idea

Where
I’ll
sleep
tonight

(Originally Posted 14.07.2020)

A Day Reclaimed

When asked to describe

The best day of your life

I’m sure you’ve got many replies

When you got married,

The birth of your kids

Or some such equally befitting prize

Well I know that for me

It was when I chose to be free

And told those fuckers I’d never be back

And ever since that time

I’ve been on cloud nine

With no fear of that panic attack


Family Dinners

Can I be arsed with this?

No.

Do I still have to go?

Yes.

Fuck.

(Originally Posted 14.07.2019)

Not The Right Time

I’m sure you didn’t mean it

That way

That you were just trying

To help me through

But wheeling out those lines

As I lost my mind

Did nothing

But make me hate you


Know-It-All

What
doesn’t
kill me
might
make
me
stronger

But
it
also
makes
me
sick

So
you
can
shove
your
aphorisms

Up
your
arse

You
condescending
prick

(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)

‘Still Remains’

I can remember when I wrote this

Even though it was some time ago

I was lying in bed

Alone in my head

When that song came on the radio

I’d heard it many times before, of course

As it played through my headphones

But this time was different

As my tears fell quicker, and

I felt it in my bones


‘Silence Like A Cancer Grows…’

Back here alone

In this room again

With the darkness

My old friend

Praying for someone

My wounds to tend

Ever hopeful

This pain will end

(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)

Poignant

Sometimes I

Have nothing to add

No further words

Or updates

This is one

Of those times,

I think,

As when I read this

My heart breaks


Leftovers

A weak and weary
confused mind

An empty and
hollow heart

As bleak as it is,
it is all I have

As my life has
fallen apart

(Originally Posted 13.07.2019)

‘Just Like A Moth To A Flame’

You only have

To look at me

And I am powerless

To resist

As by your eyes

I am hypnotised

And before I know it

We’ve kissed


Temptation

Although
it seems
I’ve
lost
my way

I’d
like to
make it
back
someday

Now all
I can
do is
hope
and
pray

That
you
won’t
lead me
further
astray

(Originally Posted 12.07.2020)

The No Escape Room

It’s a word I use a lot

‘Abyss’

Reading back now

I have noticed

I hadn’t quite realised

How numb

I’d become

Or how dissociated I was

When I wrote this


Dwelling

Pain helps, momentarily.

It provides a fleeting relief.

Then the numbness returns

And living inside this emotionless abyss, continues.

(Originally Posted 12.07.2019)

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