Month: Nov 2020

Ontology

Who am I now?

What should I do?

Why am I still here?

When I could be with you?

Xxx

6

Mawkish

You’ll say you miss him terribly

As you bleat and cry and whine

But all I’ll remember is when

You couldn’t stand to be near him then

Even half the fucking time

6

Congruent

If I was ever anything

It certainly wasn’t fake

So if you think that’s true

After all I went through

Then that’s your mistake

5

Fraudulent

Love me a little

Hate me a lot

At least I’m not the one

Who thinks they won

Pretending to be someone they’re not

2

My Lips Are Sealed

Don’t you worry

I will never tell

How much you hurt me

And put me through hell

But not to keep

Your good name intact

But more to ensure

You never come back

14

‘Want’

An artist for the ages

Your words leave me floored

What else is there to say?

Other than please, give me more

4

Rusty

Please
don’t
be
scared

He
said

There
really
is no
need

It’s only
because
it’s been
a while

She
said

Since
I’ve
done
the dirty
deed

15

Scabs

Picking at these circles

All itchy, bloody and raw

Wondering why

The fuck am I

Doing this shit again for

15

Vanished

With no idea what this shit means

I’ve fallen apart at the seams

Hidden behind these opaque screens

I only exist now in my dreams

5

The Pact

How very dare

You go up there

Without taking me

Don’t you care

Can’t you see

That’s where I’m

Supposed to be

16

Especially

Loving
someone
is
painful

Especially
when
they
can’t
love
you
back

If
only
there
was a
way

Those
feelings
to
allay

Without
the
need
for
Prozac

4

Ping

Your final post

Flashed up today, as a memory

And although just a notification

It meant so much more to me

Xxx

16

Love In The 90’s

No one could wear

A band t-shirt like you

With your longer hair

And grey cardigan too

With your smile so shy

And Doc Marten boots

It was no wonder why

We were in cahoots

8

Weak

I really am sorry

I cannot take your weight

For my arms are too broken

From carrying my own

23

Hard To Grasp

I’m not sure you ever loved me

Or even liked me very much

Perhaps that’s the root

Of all this pain

The lack of human touch

11

High Maintenance

I’m not looking for just anyone

For not just anyone will do

It’ll take someone superhuman

To survive what I’ll put them through

17

Regret (2)

Considering
everything
I’ve given
up

My
life is
finally
on track

It’s just
a shame
I didn’t
know
how

All
of
this
would
work
out

And
left
you
standing
a while
back

7

The Daily Struggle

I went back to bed

Three times today

To try to dream

This pain away

But it didn’t work

And now I’m awake

Do I have any choice

But my life to take?

21

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