The Void

I remember when we stayed in bed all day
And just ate crisps and cheese
I remember when I surprised you with gifts
And you couldn’t have been more pleased
I remember when you chatted with my Gran
And you were welcomed by my crazy clan
I remember receiving your last present
Sent to me all the way from heaven
I miss you so much today
That you’re not here is a shame
As Christmas Day without you
Will never be the same
Xxx

25/12/2019 12

Disruption

For a moment
there I was
feeling good

Living my
life the way
I should

And then you
wander back
into my mind

And all sense
of peace is
left behind

20/12/2019 12

Name That Tune

People play
those songs

With no notion
of this pain

No idea that
when I hear them

My heart bleeds
for you again

18/12/2019 8

Sundays

I
hate
Sunday
evenings

I
despise
them
with
a passion

There’s
nothing
good
about
them

No
positive
distraction

From the
fact that
tomorrow
starts
another
week

And we’re
no longer
dancing
cheek
to cheek

15/12/2019 8

Afterlife

You still
rescue
me in so
many ways

Even
from
beyond
the grave

15/12/2019 4

Helpless

This grief
is all
consuming

Who knows
when it
will end

As not only
have I lost
my lover

I have
lost my
best friend

11/12/2019 16

The Old Days

Waking along
this empty street

Splashing puddles
with my feet

I remember when
we used to meet

And my broken heart
skips a beat

05/12/2019 7

Spirit

I know
you were
sitting
with me

As I
drove
all that
way

Otherwise
it wouldn’t
have pissed
it down

The
whole
fucking
day

04/12/2019 2

Upgrade

This room

that view

for just

us two

The sea

the sky

the clouds

up above

So tranquil

and serene

this place

we love

04/12/2019 6

The Storm

The
window
shields
me from
the rain

As the
wind
outside
howls
my name

I know
I can’t
come back
here again

As
nothing
ever stays
the same

Xxx

02/12/2019 4

Once Upon A Time

Another
day passes

And I
miss you
like mad

As through
rose tinted
glasses

I remember
what we had

Xxx

02/12/2019 5

The View

Waves crash,
As memories smash,
Against the walls of my heart.

That we were once here,
Full of youthful cheer,
Just tears my soul apart.

Xxx

02/12/2019 7

Us

I’ll
always
stay true
to you

Xxx

01/12/2019 0

Cancer

It was
all just
so fucking
unfair

You were
taken from
me without
a care

With what
seemed like
no time at
all to prepare

We had no
choice but
our souls
to bare

Xxx

01/12/2019 2

Sunset

I’m glad I came here today,

There’s nowhere else I’d want to be.

I’m glad we travelled all this way,

Just you and me.

Xxx

01/12/2019 2

Your Last Breath

I
remember
like
it
was
yesterday

All
the
doctors
had
walked
away

And
it was
just
me
and
you

Holding
hands
in
that
hospital
room

Xxx

01/12/2019 10

To The Minute

There’s nothing
else to do

There’s nothing
else to say

For my love was
lost to me forever

One year
ago today

Xxx

01/12/2019 14

Somewhere Out There

I’m sure
your star
shines
brightly,

Up
there
in the
sky.

I
search
for it
nightly,

But it
always
passes
me by.

29/11/2019 5

Polaroid Memories

I can no
longer
look at
at your
face

My
eyes I
have to
sheathe

For
tears
begin
to flow
at pace

And I
can no
longer
breathe

27/11/2019 6

Many A Moon

As that
day draws
ever closer

The pain
cannot be
avoided

To think
it was just
a year ago

When my
whole world
imploded

27/11/2019 0

Unrequited (Part One)

Did you always love him?

Yes

Did he always love you?

Did that change anything?

Never

25/11/2019 7

A Different Coat

I cried for
hours this
morning

I found your
notebook in
my pocket

Now I’ve
started to
read it

I don’t
know how
to stop it

19/11/2019 10

I Reckon I Could

I reckon
I could
manage
today

If I
could
see
your
face
again

I reckon
I could
find
a way

If I
could
hear
your
voice
again

I reckon
I could
try to
be okay

If I
could
hold
your
hand
again

I reckon
I could
probably
stay

If I
could
kiss
your
lips
again

17/11/2019 6

Home Sweet Home

They say
you can
never go
home
again

And I’m
starting
to believe
that’s
true

For all
that resides
here now
is a world
of pain

And
far too
many
memories
of you

17/11/2019 3

Just Me

Life was
cruel to him

And people
were cruel too

It was only me
who was kind

Me who stuck by
him like glue

16/11/2019 0

The Tree By Moonlight

One by
one the
leaves
have
fallen

And I
can no
longer
see your
shadow

I
suppose
it is
Autumn
after all

And all
hope
I must
now
forego

14/11/2019 2

One Year Ago

If I
just
don’t
think
about
it

Then
maybe
that
day
won’t
come

I’m
just
not
sure
I can
face it

When
all
is
said
and
done

11/11/2019 15

Speaking In Tongues

I
miss
your
kiss

That
much
is
true

There’s
no
one
else

That
kisses
like
you

29/10/2019 8

Dreaming

Not only
did I
sleep
last night

I
also
dreamt
of you

I
woke
up
crying

With
my
insides
dying

Oh why
can’t my
dreams
come true?

27/10/2019 19

The Lamp

I should
have been
more careful
with what
I wished for

Because
I never
wanted it
to end like
this at all

23/10/2019 10

Our House

Nothing in this house
makes sense anymore

Madness lurks
behind every door

Memories of all
the love we swore

Leave my head in a spin
and my heart on the floor

20/10/2019 10

Flowers

You never
once
bought
me flowers

Which used
to make
me mad

Now I don’t
give a fuck
about any
of that stuff

I just
want you
back

20/10/2019 3

The Anniversary

It will
soon be
a year,
without
you here,
and I
don’t
know
what
to do.

For I’m
still
nowhere
near,
facing
my fear,
or the
reality
of losing
you.

Xxx

17/10/2019 17

From Beyond The Grave

There’s no
such thing
as a sign,
she said

Apart from
when you
need one,
he said

14/10/2019 2

Home Alone

It’s Friday night

And I’m here alone

In this house

We used to call home

There’s nothing left now

Just an empty shell

With me here alone

Living through hell

20/09/2019 14

Without You

Life is
just so
shit
without
you

I’ve got
nothing
left to
hold
on to

If
only
you were
still
here

Then I’d
have
nothing
left
to fear

19/09/2019 2

That Split Second

When I saw you
sleeping there

I couldn’t help
but stop and stare

Probably because
I was drunk too

Although nowhere
near as drunk as you

I had to walk over
and poke the bear

15/09/2019 4

Happy

I
miss
you,

I
miss
us,

I wish we
could just
go back,

To
how it
was

Before
all
of this.

Before
things turned
to shit

And we
were
happy.

Because
we were
happy.

I
was
happy.

Wasn’t I?

13/09/2019 4

The Bookshop (1)

I went
in there
just now

The one
I went into
with you

They were
playing
your song
on the radio

And because
you would
have smiled,
I smiled too

08/09/2019 1

Your Birthday

Yesterday
we
remembered
you.

Together,
in this
city, just
us two.

We laughed,
and smoked
and drank
too much beer.

Both of us
wishing you
were still
fucking here.

Xxx