"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
“You know, I should just write down all my random thoughts and stuff that happens to me and conversations I have and just add a bunch of he said, she said’s, and get it published…”
– Logan Huntzberger
Author’s Note:
I didn’t steal this idea.
Honestly.
I think that when
I wrote this one
I was trying
Not to be too mean
But believe you me
Nothing was easy
Back
In twenty nineteen
How Are You?
It’s easier to say I’m alright,
Rather then I’m anxious.
It’s easier to say I’m okay,
Rather than I’m outraged.
It’s easier to say I’m better,
Rather than I’m broken.
It’s easier to say I’m good,
Rather than I’m grieving.
It’s easier to say I’m well,
Rather than I’m wasted.
It’s easier to say I’m fine,
Rather than I’m fucked.
(Originally Posted 24.06.2019)
Remember you said
You’d love me forever
And you begged me
To let you to stay
Well I’m beginning
To wonder
If that
Was a blunder
And if I should’ve
Walked away
Happier
Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,
For never
having met.
Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,
With nothing
to regret.
(Originally Posted 24.06.2019)
As
life
continues
To slip
through
my fingers
Here
I stand,
still
As the
sadness
lingers
Tinged With Sadness
In
amongst
all of
this
madness
Here
I stand
Heart
tinged
with
sadness
(Originally Posted 24.06.2020)
Believe it or not
Despite my wroth
I am actually quite sweet
I may talk shit
In these words I spit
But in real life I’m a treat
Nom De Plume
Charmer’s the name
Misery the game
Pleased to meet you
I ain’t
I may lack flair
Writing without care
But really
I’m a saint
*winks*
(Originally Posted 23.06.2020)
And who did win out
In the end?
Well it wasn’t you
Was it my friend
All that effort
To leave me crushed
And yet I walked
Before I was pushed
Match Point
Please,
ignore
me
more and
more
each day.
For you’ll
only
push me
further
away.
Please,
glower
at me
more and
more
each week.
For
I won’t
always
turn
the other
cheek.
Please,
isolate me
more and
more
as time
goes on.
For we’ll
see who is
victorious,
when all is
said and done.
(Originally Posted 23.06.2019)
You appear to me in a way
That is beyond my cognition
Emerging slowly into the light
As a ghostly apparition
I hear you whisper softly
How it is now your mission
To close the void between us
And put an end to Deaths partition
Mausoleum
In
the
graveyard
Of
my
mind
Is
where
the
memories
Of
us
reside
So
when
I’m
alone
In
the
dead
of
night
I
walk
the
tombs
Of
our
love’s
plight
(Originally Posted 23.06.2020)
I’ve done what I can
Said the man
The rest is up to you
I will try, Brother
Said the other
But it’s not what I am used to
Taking Turns
That’s
it
now
I’ve
pulled us
through
So for
better
or worse
It’s
over
to you
(Originally Posted 22.06.2020)
When you won’t decide
One way or the other
Known colloquially
As a ‘contrary little fucker’
That’s me
Indifference
Sometimes I do
Sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I will
Sometimes I won’t
Either deal with it
Or don’t
I’m not fussed either way
(Originally Posted 22.06.2019)
I met him on the Solstice
Many, many moons ago
There amongst the stones I thought
He looks to be in the know
So I asked him that question
The one you see below
But alas, he shook his head and said
‘I just go with the flow’
The Sage
Tell me
how
you do
it
She
said
How
do you
stay so
strong
I
don’t
really
know
He
said
I make
it up
as
I go
along
(Originally Posted 22.06.2020)
Written back in twenty twenty
When the threat of Covid loomed large
Who knew that then
Boris was in Number 10
Knee deep in a fucking farce
‘Better Alone Than In Company’
After
84
days
of
solitude
We’ve
finally
broken
the
bubble
Yet
who
could
have
known
That
in
just
one
minute
We’d
get
into
this
much
trouble
(Originally Posted 21.06.2020)
You know why
We ended up here, right?
It’s the only way
To resolve our fight
Now we are free
To call each other names
As we pull no punches
And sidestep the flames
On Fire
Hell
has
been
a lonely
place.
It’s
good
to see
you
down
here.
(Originally Posted 21.06.2019)
Remember when you told me
To do this / do that
And you expected
I’d dance to your tune
Well, in reality
Your words fell flat
And to your bullshit
I’m now immune
Think Again
It’s a
mistake
to tell
me what
to do.
Even
bigger
to think
I’d listen
to you.
(Originally Posted 21.06.2019)
I used to care
What he thought of me
That I did a good job
So my skills he’d see
But now he’s changed
And lost my respect
So I just take the wage
And disconnect
Diss Regard
What’s
the
point
In all
this
chatter
Now
I’ve
realised
You
don’t
matter
Anymore
(Originally Posted 20.06.2020)
No matter how hard you strive
To keep a memory alive
They’re always forgotten
In the end
At All
I reach
for your hand,
but it’s not there,
and further into
the abyss
I fall.
I search
for your face,
but you don’t care,
and it’s like we
were never here
at all.
(Originally Posted 20.06.2019)
Put lavender on your pillow
He said
Or drink some chamomile tea
I’ve tried every pill know to man
She said
So I doubt they’ll work for me
In The North
It never quite gets dark
This time of year
Which makes the sky so pretty
But when you’re already
Struggling to sleep
It is also kinda shitty
(Originally Posted 20.06.2021)
Five cans
Six cans
Seven cans
Eight
No point
Stopping now
It’s already
Too late
Six Pack Blues
One can
Two cans
Three cans
Four
Perhaps
I should eat
Before
I drink
Any more
(Originally Posted 19.06.2020)
I lay in the bath
As you walked the path
Into the depths
Of my soul
I dropped the glass
As we came to pass
And I knew then
I was out of control
(Laws Of) Attraction
I
can no
longer
trust
myself
Whenever
I see
your
face
For I
just
want to
kiss
you
And
never
leave
your
embrace
(Originally Posted 19.06.2020)
It’s great you have a hobby
He said
Not one I share, I confess
Because writing isn’t a hobby
She said
It’s a matter of life or death
Vocabularians Of The World Unite
Vocabularians of the world unite
To put the wrongs of our world right
To give a voice to those too tired to fight
And into the darkness bring forth the light
(Originally Posted 18.06.2020)
If this one doesn’t work
He said
I can always prescribe another
If this one doesn’t work
She said
You’d better run for cover
For I have had enough
She said
Of being given pills to chew
I completely understand
He said
But there’s little else I can do
‘Not Another Day…’
Another
day
Another
pill
Will
this
one
make
me
Feel
less
ill?
(Originally Posted 18.06.2020)
‘You just survive soldier
And your soul is beautiful’
“Caring for myself is not self-indulgence, it is self-preservation, and that is an act of political warfare.”
– Audre Lorde
I spent years people pleasing
And it wrecked my mental health
So now I don’t please anyone
Except my fucking self
I’ve Heard It All Before
Just because
What doesn’t kill me
Apparently
Makes me stronger
Doesn’t give you
An excuse
To hurt me
Any longer
(Originally Posted 17.06.2021)
I don’t think
It will matter
How much time
Continues to turn
This will
Forever
Be the case
That much
I have learned
Three Score And Ten
Some
days
it feels
like
forever
Others
it feels
like a
minute
But no
matter
how
much
time has
passed
Life is
still
shit
without
you
in it
Xxx
(Originally Posted 17.06.2020)
Made me laugh out loud, this one
As it really is quite blunt
It never ceases to amaze me
How I can be such a
Con trol freak, at times
Trust Issues
Somebody
once
told
me
It will
all be
OK in
the end
Well, that
person
lied
to me
And so
is no
longer
my friend
(Originally Posted 16.06.2020)
I sense more of this type coming
And to be honest
I’m a little afraid
Not only to reread them
But also to relive them
Knowing how I’m capable of such again
The Note
It was the lonliness
That got to me
If I’m honest
In the end
Sitting here
Just quietly
But all alone
Yet again
Desperately trying
But failing
My broken heart
To mend
And all the while
Convinced
That the rope
Was my only friend
(Originally Posted 16.06.2020)
You can call me anytime
He said
I’ll always be here for you
I’d love it if just once
She said
You made me feel that that was true
Calling It Quits
I should have trusted you
She said
And let you through the wall
I didn’t try hard enough
He said
In fact I didn’t really try at all
(Originally Posted 15.06.2021)
To paint us as happy
For near nineteen years
Would be way too simplistic
To say there were times
When we were far from fine
Would be much more realistic
Xxx
Sleeping On The Sofa
Too
many
times
I’ve
sat
here
and
cried
Your
slightest
touch
So
cruelly
denied
And
even
though
We
both
tried
I’ve
still
been
left
Feeling
dead
inside
Xxx
(Originally Posted 15.06.2020)
I should have gone with him that day
Instead of just staying in
As all I have to show
Now for saying no
Is one hell of a double chin
Better Plans
Shall we go out today
He said
Have a blast and give it our all
I’m afraid I already have a date
She said
With pizza, beer and football
(Originally Posted 14.06.2021)
I think I was once preoccupied
With being considered a ‘proper poet’
But I’ve since come to realise
That my style doesn’t trivialise
Life or how I choose to show it
Bottom Of The Class
I
scroll
through
your words
And
realise
mine don’t
compare
For
you all
write so
beautifully
Whereas
I splurge
without
a care
(Originally Posted 14.06.2020)
If
I ask
you a
question
He
said
Do you
promise
to tell
the truth?
Yes
She
lied
Does My Bum Look Big In This?
If
I ask
you a
question
She
said
Do you
promise
to tell
the truth?
Yes
He
lied
(Originally Posted 13.06.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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