Momentory conversations
With temporary people
Sharing fleeting emotions
Providing non-permanent relief
Pieces of Me
Batter me,
Shatter me,I don’t matter, me.
Clatter me,
Scatter me,I just don’t matter, me.
Insanity
Upon making the journey,
to the furthest corners
of my mind,
it occurs to me.
What if I can’t remember
the way back?
Lifeline
The rubber ring
floats
towards me.
Thank you
for throwing
it down.
But I have
no desire
to grab it.
The rocks
in my pocket
are all
I need.
The Loaded Gun
Time marches on
As I come undone
And my memories fade further away.
I try to hold on,
To ignore the loaded gun
As I trudge through another day.
Indecision
It's a long way to the bottom
from all the way up here.
As I stand and shiver
I can't help but think...
What happens if I change my mind
halfway down?
Trapped
Powerless to leave
or
making a choice to stay.
There is a difference.
Saturdays
Saturdays are made for staying in bed all day.
But it's so cold and lonely, in here, without you.
‘The Story of My Life…’
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
A Chore
If only I
could pair
beautiful
imagery with
my words,
lilting melody
to my song,
revelatory
meaning to
my poetry…
Perhaps it
wouldn’t
bore the
shit out
of you
as much
to read it,
as it
does me to
write it.
Mornings
Mornings are the worst.
Trying to muster the energy to get up, get dressed and leave the house.
Trying to summon the confidence to get through yet another day without you.
To be honest, I’d rather not bother.
But I suppose I do have bills to pay.
And I do have to feed the cat.
Repeat
Wake up
Wake up
Wake up
Get up
Get up
Get up
Fuck up
Fuck up
Fuck up
Repeat
‘Of Course…’
There was, of course, a time
when I wouldn't let this happen.
There was, of course, a time
when I'd have pulled myself out of this
mess and just got on with it.
But not now.
Now I feel different.
I've lost the need, the sense of urgency.
I'm not even worried if it doesn't come back.
I've given up hoping it will any more.
Although I know I can't carry on like this.
And honestly, I don't want to.
To get out of this shithole I've got to work.
And there is, of course, only so much daytime TV
you can watch.