I
could
lie
here
and
fade
away
I’m
neither
here
nor
there
Not
that
I expect
you
would
notice
Or
that
you’d
even
care
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I
could
lie
here
and
fade
away
I’m
neither
here
nor
there
Not
that
I expect
you
would
notice
Or
that
you’d
even
care
And as
another
busy
week
starts
In
this
maelstrom
of ruptured
hearts
We
can
only
hope
to find
Solace
in our
peace
of
mind
I’m
glad
you
find
it
helpful
But I
certainly
do not
What’s
the
point
in
telling
tales
When
you’ve
already
lost
the
plot?
Another minute
Another hour
Another day
Another shower
Of shite
It
frightens
me
just
how
much
your
Inaction
shakes
me
to
the
core
Is that
it now
She
said
Can we
go back?
As I want
nothing more
But to fade
to black
It’s
hard to
write
it all
down
What
I’ve
been
feeling
inside
But now
is the
time to
start
again
For the
truth
I’ll no
longer
hide
It’s
only
when
times
are
hard
You
realise
all this
is a
fucking
farce
What do I do
Now all hope is gone
And I am left here
On my own
Somehow still alive
But gasping for air
Unable to thrive
Yet unwilling to care
I’ve
slept
most
of the
night
tonight
And I
haven’t
yet
got
out
of bed
I wish
I could
say
I am
ill or
something
But
it’s
actually
just
apathy
instead
No
longer
looking for
reasons
to liveRapidly
running
out of
fucks
to give
Will I
always
be like
this
She
asked
Will I
always
be so
sad?
There’s
no point
asking
me
He
said
You’re not
the only
one who’s
been had
I wish
I could
rememberThe
good
old
daysBut I
fear they
were just
a lieFor I
cannot
recallAny
time in
my lifeWhen I
didn’t
want
to die
I have
to say
I’ve
had
enoughSurely
no one
can be
this
tough
I really
can’t be
arsed
I’d rather
just stay
in bed
I’m not in
the mood for
such jollity
Preferring
melancholy,
as I do, instead
Another
day spent
lying
in bedThoughts
racing
through
my headWondering
what it
was you
saidAnd all
the while
wishing
I was dead
Here
Another
pillNow
just
stay
stillDon’t
dare
scratch
that
itchYou’ll
just
pull
out
another
stitchThen
once
again
you
will
bleed
everywhereAnd
I
will
have
to
pretend
I
care
You
say
that
look
in my
eye
Sends
shivers
down
your
spine
I hope
one day
when
you
look
at me
That
you’ll
send
shivers
down
mine
Waking up tired,
Heart already in pain
I really can’t be arsed,
with this shit again
A
little
nick
hereA
little
cut
thereIt
doesn’t
hurt
anymoreNot
that
I’d
care…
I
can’t
be
arsed
Is it
too late
to phone
in sick?
For life…
How the
fuck am
I going
to get
through
today
when I
can’t even
open my
eyes?Why the
fuck am
I even
bothering
today
when
my life
is just
a myriad
of lies?
If you stare
at the same four walls
for long enough,
a fifth can start
to appear.Perhaps it’s then
you’re supposed to
realise that
the end is near.If you stare
at the same four walls
for long enough,
your mind can
start to bend.Perhaps it’s then
you’re supposed to
know it’s the
beginning of the end.
Another
day spent
trudging
through
the
sludge
of life
still
refusing
to budge
forever
trying to
avoid the
judgement
of those
who secretly
hold a
grudge
against me
Admit it.
You hate this as much as I do.
It’s what keeps us together.
So I managed,
in the end,
to get out of bed
And it’s been a
shitty day so far,
just as I said
So I was right,
I should never
have tried
For I’ll never
escape this
pain inside
I can’t even
bear the thought
of what’s to
come tomorrow
No doubt
it’ll just
be more misery
and sorrow
Perhaps I’d
be better
off staying
in bed
Then I might
just escape
these thoughts
in my head
Can I be arsed with this?
No.
Do I still have to go?
Yes.
Fuck.
Momentory conversations
With temporary people
Sharing fleeting emotions
Providing non-permanent relief
Batter me,
Shatter me,I don’t matter, me.
Clatter me,
Scatter me,I just don’t matter, me.
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