If at first
You don’t succeed
You should try,
And try again
Then when all else fails
Down a sea of cocktails
And hope
It dulls the pain
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
If at first
You don’t succeed
You should try,
And try again
Then when all else fails
Down a sea of cocktails
And hope
It dulls the pain
You’d think I’d know
This route by now
As I’ve travelled it
So many times
Yet I always see
Something new to me
As I traverse
These railway lines
Frozen with fear
In the dead of night
I shed a tear
And hold on tight
As I pray to you
To see me through
Hoping this time
You’ll hear my plight
When those bands
Of old
Don’t speak to you
And the comfort
Of music
Is gone
It won’t matter
Where
Because
I’ll be there
To help you
Carry on
Well thank fuck for that
She said
As she walked away
With her empty head
Fair And Square
One
thousand
poems
And I am
finally
done
This
battle is
now over
And my
war has
been won
(Originally Posted 29.02.2020)
“There shouldn’t be this radio silence
But what are the options?”
As much as I love
That you read my words
And you praise them
Like you do
You have to know
As I deliver each blow
That I write more for me
Than you
Hecklers
Has
anyone
ever
told
you to
stop
He
said
With
these
bullshit
rhymes
you
spew
Oh
many,
many
times
She
said
And
I told
them
to piss
off
too
(Originally Posted 27.01.2021)
“An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle but it will never break.”
– Chinese Mythology
The Red String Of Fate
It’s what
keeps us
together
Forever
(Originally Posted 13.01.2020)
“Someone once asked me: ‘why do you love music so much?’ I replied: ‘because it’s the only thing that stays when everything and everyone is gone.'”
– Kid Cudi
It’s like saying hello
To your oldest friend
But seeing them is conflicting
You enjoy the sting
Of the comfort they bring
But not of the wounds you’re inflicting
Scabs
Picking at these circles
All itchy, bloody and raw
Wondering why
The fuck am I
Doing this shit again for
(Originally Posted 24.11.2020)
I must be one of those people
Who really gets off on pain
As since he died
On this song I’ve imbibed
Again and again and again
Masochism
Every time
I hear
this song
It brings
tears to
my eyes
And pain
to my
heart
A reminder of
all I’ve come
to despise
And how
we’ll forever
be apart
I should
just press
stop
Switch
off the
laptop
And
walk
away…
(Originally Posted 24.10.2019)
I would be lying
If, after he lay dying,
I said I returned all of his medication
That I didn’t at least keep some
To peruse and choose from
In any future difficult situation
Well, in fact, I did
And with how many I hid
I could have force fed the nation
So, dead behind the eyes,
Full of prescribed pills and otherwise
I fulfilled each and every obligation
Acceptance
I
asked
the
doctor
When
will the
tablets
work?
When do
they take
away my
hurt?
Nothing
will
do that,
she said
They
only
make it
so you
get out
of bed
I
asked
the
doctor
Are
you
sure?
Won’t
you do
something
more?
There’s
nothing
else I
can do,
she said
You just
have to
accept
that he
is dead
(Originally Posted 12.10.2019)
Go well my friend
Into the night
Through the darkness
To find the light
The Trade Off
It’s with a heavy heart
And a mournful sigh
That the time has come
To say our goodbye
I’m eternally grateful
For all you have done
For you soothed my pain
And left me with none
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
Do you think
He said
That you drink too much
Trust me
She said
It’s nowhere near enough
The Trouble With Juniper
Nobody
knows
the
trouble
I’ve seen
The loves
and the
losses and
everything
in-between
On one
too many
gin bottles
I have
relied
To keep
all of my
secrets
hidden
inside
(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)
I know you’re looking
To me for help
But I am just
As clueless myself
I’m Sorry
It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyes
I felt
every
ache
of your
heart
If only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feel
But
I’ve no
wisdom
left to
impart
(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)
In this city
I once called home
I know I could never
Feel alone
Coming Home
It’s not
that I
love this
city
It’s that
I love
who I am
when I’m here
(Originally Posted 08.09.2019)
I found her poems
In a cupboard at school
Back when I was young
I realised then
That I’d found a friend
And so to that book I’ve clung
https://poetryarchive.org/poet/stevie-smith/
Dear Stevie
If we
could
meet
We’d
drink
a brew
And
maybe
share
A
laugh
or two
Yet we
would
know
At the
end of
the day
What
connects
us both
Is
life’s
decay
(Originally Posted 20.08.2020)
Tea
She said
Is that it?
Don’t you have anything stronger
I’ll have a look in the back
He said
But it might take a little longer
Stiff Upper Lip
I
feel
so
sad
She
said
Can
you
help
me?
I’ll
certainly
try
He
said
Here’s
some
tea
(Originally Posted 09.08.2020)
I’m
glad
I don’t
give
much
away
As if
I did,
you’d
never
come
back
Self Esteem
There’s
nothing
more
disheartening
That
brings
me
consternation
and
strife
Than
to find
I’m
more
captivating
On
the
page
Than
I could
ever be
in real life
(Originally Posted 07.06.2020)
I should try to be considerate
And care about people more
Yet anything but belligerence,
It seems,
I was not pre-programmed for
I, Robot
The kindness of others never ceases to amaze me…
Although my inability to replicate it does.
(Originally Posted 07.06.2019)
You were all I had
When he died
And I didn’t know how to cope
I was driven mad
Each time I cried
And you were my only hope
‘The Boy’s No Good… ‘
As
I sit
and
listen
To each
word you
say
All
of my
pain
Simply
ebbs
away
(Originally Posted 06.06.2020)
If only we hadn’t done it
If only we’d just stayed friends
I would still have you
To help me through
And this wouldn’t be the end
Our (Companion)Ship Has Sailed
Time
was
you
would
comfort
me
And
things
would
be just
fine
But
now it’s
much
too late
for that
As
we
both
crossed
the line
(Originally Posted 12.05.2020)
The coincidence
Inexplicable
The evidence
Inadmissible
But I know it’s you
Xxx
‘Look at me standing
Here on my own again
Up straight in the sunshine…’
“Sex is the consolation you have when you can’t have love.”
– Gabriel García Márquez
As I sit here
All alone
And my tears
Begin to fall
I am reminded
Once again
Chamomile tea
Solves fuck all
You can tell me all you want
That you can hear him
But I’ll never believe it’s true
For if he was talking to anyone
From the ‘other side’
Then it would be me, not you
Xxx
If the choice
Is to go hard
Or go home
I know
Where I’m headed
I prefer the night
To the day
The world, on the whole, is quieter
This way
It’s hard to explain what happens
When I’m standing alone up there
I’m just willing it all to end
To no longer have to care
I forget about everyone
And every little thing
It’s just me and the breeze
With the comfort it can bring
My mind is crystal clear
And I don’t hear a sound
As all of my focus is trained
On finally hitting the ground
I’m glad
I kept
your aftershave,
so that I
can wear
it too.It’s the
only thing
that I
have left,
that keeps
me close
to you.(Originally Posted 14.06.2019)
They say you don’t know
What you mean to people
Whom you may never see
Well all I can say
Is I hope and pray
That no one relies on me
I really am sorry
I cannot take your weight
For my arms are too broken
From carrying my own
Dá fhada lá, tagann an oíche
– Seanfhocal Gaeilge
I
honestly
don’t
rememberWhen
I last
felt
human
touchAnd
as
time
goes
onI’ve
started
to
feelThat
I actually
don’t
mind
too
much
Will
it
always
be like
this
She
said
Don’t
I deserve
a reprieve?
That
all
depends
on the
book
He
said
In
which
you
choose
to believe
I
miss
youWhen
my
feet
are
coldAnd
how
youWould
always
warm
them
soXxx
Sing
to me
some
more
She
said
For
your
voice
I hold
so dear
I’ll
always
sing to
you
He
said
Even
when
I’m no
longer
here
Xxx
I
feel
so
sad
She
said
Can
you
help
me?
I’ll
certainly
try
He
said
Here’s
some
tea
It’s
not
that
I don’t
want
to
She
said
I
just
don’t
know
how
Come
a little
closer
He
said
None
of
that
matters
now
Someone
once
told
me
It’ll
all be
OK in
the end
That
person
lied
to me
And
is no
longer
my friend
And
then
it
hits
Like
a ton
of
bricks
And
I don’t
feel a
thing
I wish
you were
with me
Gently
squeezing
my hand
Providing
me with
comfort
Helping me
understand
As
the rot
starts
to set
in
I
pour
myself
another
gin
To
silence
the pain
in my
head
As
the
thoughts
seem to
shift
My
mood
starts
to
lift
And
I can
finally
get out
of bed
Time
was
you
would
comfort
me
And
things
would
be just
fine
But
now it’s
much
too late
for that
As
we
both
crossed
the line
I know
I really
shouldn’t
laugh
At her
seemingly
heartfelt
epitaph
But I
know you
would’ve
had a giggle
At such
overwrought
sentimental
drivel
Xxx
I don’t
know
why
I call
As I
know
you
can’t
respond
I just
need
to hear
your
voice
So
that
I can
carry
on
As I
open
up my
scars
The
blood
flows
once
more
As I
begin
to see
stars
I fall,
sated,
to the
floor
It was
exactly
one year
ago
That we
were all
sat in
that tent
But there
was only
one who
truly
listened
To my
broken
hearted
lament
From that
day we’ve
kept in
touch
Developing
connections
of our
own
That’s
because
you chose
both of us
To reap
from the
seeds you
had sown
Solace
comes
swiftly
to
those
who
readFor
those
who can
devour
words
are
freed
Resist
that
urge
To
binge
and
purge
Put
the box
back
under
the bed
Before
the
demons
emerge
And
your
emotions
splurge
Find a
pen and
start
writing
instead
Can you
see me?For I can
see youBelieve it
or notBut I know
it’s true
You still
rescue
me in so
many ways
Even
from
beyond
the grave
I saw you
in the birds
I heard them
cry your name
Your tears were
in the river
Your passion
in that flame
Watching
over me
Like a shadow
in the night
Trying to give
me comfort
But just giving
me a fright
You have no idea,
How much your sideways glance,
Hauls my weary heart,
Through yet another,
Lonely day…
There is no better place.
Those we love don’t walk beside us.
There are no other rooms.
You will stand at that grave and weep.
There are more than five stages.
There are more than two parts.
Tears are not silent.
There is no peace or comfort to find.
Time heals nothing.
You’ll always walk alone.
And grief is like a fucking tsunami,
so good luck learning to swim in that.