Scarred For Life

It’s like saying hello

To your oldest friend

But seeing them is conflicting

You enjoy the sting

Of the comfort they bring

But not of the wounds you’re inflicting


Scabs

Picking at these circles

All itchy, bloody and raw

Wondering why

The fuck am I

Doing this shit again for

(Originally Posted 24.11.2020)

Stuck On Repeat

I must be one of those people

Who really gets off on pain

As since he died

On this song I’ve imbibed

Again and again and again


Masochism

Every time
I hear
this song

It brings
tears to
my eyes

And pain
to my
heart

A reminder of
all I’ve come
to despise

And how
we’ll forever
be apart

I should
just press
stop

Switch
off the
laptop

And
walk
away…

(Originally Posted 24.10.2019)

Emergency Supplies

I would be lying

If, after he lay dying,

I said I returned all of his medication

That I didn’t at least keep some

To peruse and choose from

In any future difficult situation

Well, in fact, I did

And with how many I hid

I could have force fed the nation

So, dead behind the eyes,

Full of prescribed pills and otherwise

I fulfilled each and every obligation


Acceptance

I
asked
the
doctor

When
will the
tablets
work?

When do
they take
away my
hurt?

Nothing
will
do that,
she said

They
only
make it
so you
get out
of bed

I
asked
the
doctor

Are
you
sure?

Won’t
you do
something
more?

There’s
nothing
else I
can do,
she said

You just
have to
accept
that he
is dead

(Originally Posted 12.10.2019)

Go Well My Friend

Go well my friend

Into the night

Through the darkness

To find the light


The Trade Off

It’s with a heavy heart

And a mournful sigh

That the time has come

To say our goodbye

I’m eternally grateful

For all you have done

For you soothed my pain

And left me with none

(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)

Drowning It Out

Do you think

He said

That you drink too much

Trust me

She said

It’s nowhere near enough


The Trouble With Juniper

Nobody
knows
the
trouble
I’ve seen

The loves
and the
losses and
everything
in-between

On one
too many
gin bottles
I have
relied

To keep
all of my
secrets
hidden
inside

(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)

I Wasn’t Given Any Instructions Either

I know you’re looking

To me for help

But I am just

As clueless myself


I’m Sorry

It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyes

I felt
every
ache
of your
heart

If only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feel

But
I’ve no
wisdom
left to
impart

(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)

Pop. 612,040 (+1)

In this city

I once called home

I know I could never

Feel alone


Coming Home

It’s not
that I
love this
city

It’s that
I love
who I am
when I’m here

(Originally Posted 08.09.2019)

‘Help Is On The Way, Dear’

Tea

She said

Is that it?

Don’t you have anything stronger

I’ll have a look in the back

He said

But it might take a little longer


Stiff Upper Lip

I
feel
so
sad

She
said

Can
you
help
me?

I’ll
certainly
try

He
said

Here’s
some
tea

(Originally Posted 09.08.2020)

Persona(l)

I’m
glad
I don’t
give
much
away

As if
I did,
you’d
never
come
back


Self Esteem

There’s
nothing
more
disheartening

That
brings
me
consternation
and
strife

Than
to find
I’m
more
captivating

On
the
page

Than
I could
ever be
in real life

(Originally Posted 07.06.2020)

Man-Made

I should try to be considerate

And care about people more

Yet anything but belligerence,

It seems,

I was not pre-programmed for


I, Robot

The kindness of others never ceases to amaze me…

Although my inability to replicate it does.

(Originally Posted 07.06.2019)

The Songs That Saved My Life

You were all I had

When he died

And I didn’t know how to cope

I was driven mad

Each time I cried

And you were my only hope


‘The Boy’s No Good… ‘

As
I sit
and
listen

To each
word you
say

All
of my
pain

Simply
ebbs
away

(Originally Posted 06.06.2020)

A Good Idea At The Time

If only we hadn’t done it

If only we’d just stayed friends

I would still have you

To help me through

And this wouldn’t be the end


Our (Companion)Ship Has Sailed

Time
was
you
would
comfort
me

And
things
would
be just
fine

But
now it’s
much
too late
for that

As
we
both
crossed
the line

(Originally Posted 12.05.2020)

The T

As I sit here

All alone

And my tears

Begin to fall

I am reminded

Once again

Chamomile tea

Solves fuck all

Sceptical

You can tell me all you want

That you can hear him

But I’ll never believe it’s true

For if he was talking to anyone

From the ‘other side’

Then it would be me, not you

Xxx

Peace

It’s hard to explain what happens

When I’m standing alone up there

I’m just willing it all to end

To no longer have to care

I forget about everyone

And every little thing

It’s just me and the breeze

With the comfort it can bring

My mind is crystal clear

And I don’t hear a sound

As all of my focus is trained

On finally hitting the ground

Bottled Memories

I’m glad
I kept
your aftershave,
so that I
can wear
it too.

It’s the
only thing
that I
have left,
that keeps
me close
to you.

(Originally Posted 14.06.2019)

Pedestals

They say you don’t know

What you mean to people

Whom you may never see

Well all I can say

Is I hope and pray

That no one relies on me

Weak

I really am sorry

I cannot take your weight

For my arms are too broken

From carrying my own

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