We were friends
Before we were lovers
And that’s what I miss
The most
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
We were friends
Before we were lovers
And that’s what I miss
The most
So I’m due to leave
The house today
Off out with my friends
To play
Whilst enjoying, perhaps
A wine or two
I’ll try my best
To forget about you
If ever you need someone
You don’t have to worry
As I’ll be there
Like a shot
Please never question
If you can call me
As I’d rather listen to you
Than not
Even if I had any fucks left
I still wouldn’t give one to you
They were the glory days
Although we didn’t know it then
Oh, how I’d love to go back
And do it all again
With you
New friends
Old friends
Friends I’ve yet to meet
I hope and pray
One day you’ll say
That I was right up your street
Why the fuck did we start this
He said
When we knew it would have to end
I guess now we’re no longer lovers
She said
We can never be friends
You don’t like me
I don’t like you
So let’s just leave it at that
For anything else
Is irrelevant
You arrogant little twat
It was the best day
When we met
The worst when
You walked away
But what hurts the most
Is I was far too morose
For you to want to stay
Never amongst so many people
Have I felt so alone
I really do not want to stay
But know I can’t go home
Yet for all the kindness
And love I’ve been shown
I still cannot face another day
Here on my own
(Originally Posted 01.06.2019)
You should be here with us.
Reciting these stories,
Reminding us of the facts,
Pointing out the details,
Bringing these memories to life.
We didn't realise, back then,
We'd need to remember it all.
As one day you wouldn't be here,
To connect the dots...
(Originally Posted 13.03.2019)
So I’m
coming to
your house
todayAs it
seems
I have
no choiceBut to endure
three hours
of awkward
pretenceAnd your
fucking
awful
voiceIf only
I could
just say
noThen all
of this
would
endInstead I’ll
turn up
with a
smileAnd fake
being
your best
friend(Originally Posted 15.09.2019)
Hi,
Sorry I’m late.
I didn’t want to come
And I already want to go home.
Where’s the booze..?
(Originally Posted 19.04.2019)
Maybe if you
Could just look
Look inside your heart
For a minute
You would see
What you did to me
Was a heinous crime
To commit
So long
Farewell
Auf Wiedersehen
Adieu
I never liked you anyway
Or the rest of your fucking crew
I still cry myself to sleep
Not that you’d know
You selfish creep
You think because
We all lost him
That we both feel the same
But you’ve really got
No fucking clue
How I live each day in pain
I’m neither little
Nor quite charming
In fact my words
Can be most alarming
But the friends I’ve made
In different ways
All serve to brighten
My darkest days
So thanks to you all
For reading my shit
It warms this dark heart
Just a little bit
I will no longer apologise
To you or anyone else
For the only person
I now need to please
Is my own fucking self
Not only is it the time of year for giving
But the time for receiving too
You’ve no idea how glad I am
There’s no more bullshit gifts from you
You can fuck off now
I’ve had enough
I no longer care
For this selfish stuff
But you should know
And I mean to be blunt
Maybe I wasn’t always right
But you were always a cunt
You’ll say you miss him terribly
As you bleat and cry and whine
But all I’ll remember is when
You couldn’t stand to be near him then
Even half the fucking time
Considering
everything
I’ve given
up
My
life is
finally
on track
It’s just
a shame
I didn’t
know
how
All
of
this
would
work
out
And
left
you
standing
a while
back
How
long
will
you
Be
here
for
me
When
your
own
tradegy
strikes
What
will
happen
To
our
love
When
your
reality
bites?
Wind
Howling
Strangers
Prowling
Dogs
Growling
Me
Scowling
– Obviously
The
internal
debateRages on
without
relentShould
I kiss
you now‘Til my
hearts
contentOr
should I
hold offAnd
think
againFor
I can’t
lose youMy
only
friend
I
wonder
what
you
think
of meNow
you
know my
vulnerabilityDo
you
care
for
what
you
seeOr
will
this
all end
predictably?
And
fuck
you
tooI’ve
never
been
happierSince
I got
rid of
you
I am
more
lonely
Than
anybody
knows
I
could
really
Use
a
friend
Before
this
darkness
Inside
me
grows
And
it
really
Is
the
end
Think
what
you
want
about
me
Speak
shit
to
those
who’ll
listen
But
please
believe
me
when
I say
It
won’t
be me
who
rues
the
day
That
you
created
this
division
Your house isn’t the problem.
You are.
It
has
occured
to me
once
again
Now
that
I’m
left
without
a friend
Maybe
all
this
time
I’ve
misunderstood
And
it was
actually
me who
fucked
things
up
This
was
hardly
a fair
fight
And
we
both
know
who
rightfully
won
Yet
I’ll
step
graciously
aside
for
you
As
one
day
the
truth
will
come
It’s
not
about
what
she
didOr
what
he did
either
to be
fairIt’s
about
how
it has
made
me feelFor
the
rest
I could
not
care
The
wait
is
almost
worse
than
the
call
itself
Maybe
it’s
because
I can’t
be there
Or
perhaps
it’s
more
I just
don’t
care
For
now
that my
confidence
has
grown
I’ll
spend my
birthday
home
alone
Continue to enjoy
Your sweet little lives
And act as you see fit
I’m just relieved
I no longer suffer
The toxicity that lies
Beneath it
I’m
glad
that
you
can
see
it
As
I
don’t
have
a
clue
But
out
of
everyone
It
might
have
been
I
knew
it
would
be
you
I’m
sorry
for
what
I did
I’m
sorry
for
what
I said
I’ve
been
an
utter
arsehole
Given
that
he
is
dead
It
hurts
my
heart
To
hear
you
cry
And
watch
you
break
Like
this
As
your
life
Falls
apart
And
you
stare
Into
the
abyss
What’s
the
point
In all
this
chatter
Now
I’ve
realised
You
don’t
matter
Anymore
Someone
once
told
me
It’ll
all be
OK in
the end
That
person
lied
to me
And
is no
longer
my friend
Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be
Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind
All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose
A
method
that
is
kind
I’m
sorry
I haven’t
been
around
As
much
as I’d
like
to be
But
lately
my life
has run
aground
And
your
words
won’t
go in,
You see
When
the
wine
is in
The
wit
is
out
And
it’s a
good
job
To
be
honest
As
what
else
Would
we talk
about?
Thank
you
for
alerting
me
To
what
I could
feel
But
could
not
see
Because
of
you
I
am
now
free
To
be
the
person
I
want
to
be
If only
I believed
you
Things
would be
so different
If only I
was who
you see
Life
could be
magnificent
There’s
infinitely
more
I could
have said
So just be
grateful
that
I’ve put
it to bed
Why
can’t
it be
like that
all the
time
Talking,
laughing
and
drinking
wine
It
always
feels
like
such a
crime
When I
have to
return
to this
life of
mine
They
say it’s
good to
be back
And
for once
this time
it is
Reliving
all of
those
memories
Really
is
such
bliss
Just
to be
sitting
here
tonight
Delighting
in who
I was
then
Makes
me so
glad I
got the
chance
To
come
back
here
again
If you
can’t
bear
to see
the hurt
you’ve
caused
Then
feel
free
to
look
away
For I
know
that
guilt
will
fuck
you up
And
you’ll
face
the
truth
one day
You can say
what you wantBut you’re
still a cuntYour actions
I can’t forgiveFor I’ll bear
the bruntOf your
audacious stuntFor as long as
we both shall live
There
is no
wayThat
I can
shareFor
what
we haveIs
beyond
compare
Every
time
we
say
goodbye
I wish
that
you
would
stay
For
another
piece
of my
soul is
crushed
Every
time
you
walk
away
I’m not sure I
can offer muchBut a tissue
for your tearsA shoulder for
you to lean onAnd an endless
supply of beers
Please
tell me
you feel
it too
This
subtle
form of
sorcery
That
when I’m
thinking
about you
You’re
also
thinking
of me
I don’t
want you
to visit
When all
you bring
is pain
I’d rather
stay home
alone
And break
this toxic
chain
I’m
going out
tonightTo
remind
myself
to liveI’m also
hoping to
forgetWhat I
know
I can’t
forgive
I doubt
I’ll get
through
another
dayUnless
I know
that
you’re
okay
I’m
not
really
cryingShe
saidHonestly
things
are
fineYou
can’t
kid a
kidderHe
saidNow
just
come
back
to mine
I
wish
you were
here with meAll
these
tales we
could shareBut
yet we
find we’re
both aloneSo
into the
depths
we stare
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