At
this
point
I’ll
try
anything
She
said
It
can’t
do any
harm
Then
you
should
take
this
one
He
said
It’ll
work
like a
charm
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
At
this
point
I’ll
try
anything
She
said
It
can’t
do any
harm
Then
you
should
take
this
one
He
said
It’ll
work
like a
charm
Ah well
What the heck
Put your hand
Around my neck
And squeeze
When I was told
What did unfold
I’ll admit that
I was envious
For you achieved
Of what I dream
As my will to live
Is tenuous
The
cut
on
my
wrist
Has
now
healed
As
I was
told
not
to
pick
it
The
delicate
skin
Is
now
sealed
So
I’ll
try
not
to
nick
it
Again
One
day
I’ll
wake
up
And
I won’t
feel
this
strong
So
you’ll
find
me
Drowned
in the
river
And
back
where
I belong
So
this
is
it
Lying
in bed
all day
again
Wine
and
cigarettes
my only
friend
I’m so
bored
of this
shit
I
could
make
myself
sick
I
really
am
nothing
But a
nauseating
prick
Another minute
Another hour
Another day
Another shower
Of shite
Is that
it now
She
said
Can we
go back?
As I want
nothing more
But to fade
to black
I
don’t
want
to feel
better
I
don’t
want
to feel
at all
And
so
begins
another
day
Where
I pretend
every
thing
is ok
If
only
there
was
another
way
As I
hate
being
such a
fucking
cliché
So this is
what it
amounts to
All I have
to show for
my life
Do you
know
I can’t
actually
be arsed
Please,
just pass me
the knife
Whatever
it is you
want
from me
I just
don’t
have it
to give
As I’m
focusing
all of my
attention
On
finding
reasons
to live
Everybody’s
everythingBut
Nobody’s
nothingBoth at
the same
time
I’ll
never
leave
the
house
again
If
that
is
what
you
want
There’s
nothing
out
there
for
me
anyway
Of
that
I’m
confident
I
know
that
you
are
here
to stay
I heard
your
voice
from
miles
away
Telling
them
you
were
coming
for me
And
that
you
would
have
no
sympathy
I wish
I could
rememberThe
good
old
daysBut I
fear they
were just
a lieFor I
cannot
recallAny
time in
my lifeWhen I
didn’t
want
to die
Please
give me
another
pill to
swallowFor I
don’t
want to
wake up
tomorrow
From
happy
souls
the
lifeblood
drains
Until
nothing
but
the
darkness
remains
It can
be a
hard
lesson
to learnWhen
you’re
at the
point of
no returnThat
nobody
actually
gives
a shitWhether
you decide
to stay
or to
end it
Ups and downs,
Peaks and troughs,
But the darkness?
That never stops…
It’s only
when you
reach the
bottomYou
realise
there’s no
way backYou
know then
you’re too
far goneBut all
you can
see is
The Black
It’s Friday night
And I’m here alone
In this house
We used to call home
There’s nothing left now
Just an empty shell
With me here alone
Living through hell
A
little
nick
hereA
little
cut
thereIt
doesn’t
hurt
anymoreNot
that
I’d
care…
It’s time
to put you
back in
your boxTo fasten
the lid
and change
the locksI cannot
continue
down this
pathFor if I
do there
is no way
back
All happiness
is fleeting
All sadness
is depleting
I’m no
longer competing
From sanity
I’m retreating
How the
fuck am
I going
to get
through
today
when I
can’t even
open my
eyes?Why the
fuck am
I even
bothering
today
when
my life
is just
a myriad
of lies?