So
it’s
been
a yearOf
your
latest
treatmentYet
I still
don’t
feelAny
fucking
different
The Sting
If
I had
never
gone
down
this
pathIt
wouldn’t
hurt
so
much
in the
bath
Going Over
And
then
it
hits
Like
a ton
of
bricks
And
I don’t
feel a
thing
Precision
Just be
careful
not to
slip
Not one
ounce of
blood to
drip
For you
don’t want
them to
see
Just how
messed
up you
can be
Relief
As I
open
up my
scars
The
blood
flows
once
more
As I
begin
to see
stars
I fall,
sated,
to the
floor
Hiding The Knives
No amount
of blood,
sweat and
tearsWill ever
be enough
to assuage
these fearsBelieve
meI’ve
tried
‘Life Becoming A Landslide’
One scar
Two scar
Three scar
Four
It’s not a problem
I suppose
To add
A couple more
Scenes Some Viewers May Find Upsetting
It’s
not
self harming
It’s
self
soothing
999
God
knows
why I
didn’t
wake up
dead
Or why
I didn’t
think
to plan
this far
ahead
Lack Of Understanding
You can’t
keep
hurting
yourself
He
said
For I
can’t
bear to
see it
The
only
problem
is
She
said
It’s
not just
about you,
is it?
Unsafe Thoughts
Take
away
my
knives
Put
those
razors in
the bin
For the
urge to
cut is
rising
To bleed
out the
pain
within
As Yet Undecided
Still
here
tryingYet
always
cryingMind
constantly
vyingBetween
living
and dying
(A) Pathetic (Part One)
Here
Another
pillNow
just
stay
stillDon’t
dare
scratch
that
itchYou’ll
just
pull
out
another
stitchThen
once
again
you
will
bleed
everywhereAnd
I
will
have
to
pretend
I
care
Bleeding
It feels
like I’ve
been robbedOf the
only love
in my lifeThis pain
runs deep,
she sobbed,As it cuts
through me
like a knife
Harm Reduction
I’ve been
trying
so hard
to break
this chainSo I’ve
drawn on
my arms
with Biro
againAt least,
this time,
it’s just
a tokenAnd my
skin,
for now,
remains
unbroken
Harsh Truth
It can
be a
hard
lesson
to learnWhen
you’re
at the
point of
no returnThat
nobody
actually
gives
a shitWhether
you decide
to stay
or to
end it
Moods
Ups and downs,
Peaks and troughs,
But the darkness?
That never stops…
Another Notch
A
little
nick
hereA
little
cut
thereIt
doesn’t
hurt
anymoreNot
that
I’d
care…
Yes Sir, No Sir
Okay,
okay,
I accept
defeat.
I’ll get up,
get dressed,
drink tea,
eat.
I’ll take
the pills
you say
I need.
I’ll be a
good girl
like we
agreed.
… – – – …
I
NEED
YOU
MORE
THAN
EVER
BEFORE
I
SIMPLY
CANNOT
DO
THIS
ANY
MORE
Scissors
It’s time
to put you
back in
your boxTo fasten
the lid
and change
the locksI cannot
continue
down this
pathFor if I
do there
is no way
back
When Will It End?
Biting my nails
until they bleed,
doesn’t give me
the relief I need.
Scratching my skin
until it’s breaking,
doesn’t stop my
heart from aching.
When will it end,
this pain I’m feeling?
When does it stop,
when do I start healing?
Depression (Part 2)
Eat until you’re sick
Snap until you bruise
Run until you’re limp
Drink shit loads of booze
Spend until you’re skint
Sleep until you’re sore
Cry until you’re empty
Sleep around like a whore
Shout until you’re hoarse
Cut until you bleed
Work until you drop
Smoke a shedload of weed
Lie until you’re spent
Smile until you’re alone
Write until you’re wrung
Forget all you’ve ever known
Dwelling
Pain helps, momentarily.
It provides a fleeting relief.
Then the numbness returns.
And living inside this emotionless abyss, continues.