I am
more
lonely
Than
anybody
knows
I
could
really
Use
a
friend
Before
this
darkness
Inside
me
grows
And
it
really
Is
the
end
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I am
more
lonely
Than
anybody
knows
I
could
really
Use
a
friend
Before
this
darkness
Inside
me
grows
And
it
really
Is
the
end
Please
just
walk
away
And
take
yourself
off home
I
don’t
want to
talk
I
want
to be
alone
Here
I lieDespite
my wealthMurdered
By my
mental
health
Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be
Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind
All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose
A
method
that
is
kind
All
I can
say is
I live
in hope
That
one day
I will
tie that
rope
As
tightly
as I see
it in
my mind
And
all my
troubles
I’ll leave
behind
What do I do
Now all hope is gone
And I am left here
On my own
Somehow still alive
But gasping for air
Unable to thrive
Yet unwilling to care
So this is
what it
amounts to
All I have
to show for
my life
Do you
know
I can’t
actually
be arsed
Please,
just pass me
the knife
I’m
really
not
fineI’m
really
not fine
at allSurely
you
must
see it?Can’t you
hear my
distress
call?
I wish
I could
rememberThe
good
old
daysBut I
fear they
were just
a lieFor I
cannot
recallAny
time in
my lifeWhen I
didn’t
want
to die
Tears
become
oceansHours
into
daysGoing
through
the motionsCaught
between
the waves
Do you
ever wish
you could
give up?
Say right,
that’s it,
I’ve had
enough!
I’m done
with all
this fucking
shit
I’m finally
going
through
with it!
Well,
that’s what
I think
every day
I find
those words
so easy
to say
And now,
it seems,
the demons
have won
For I can
say that I’m
officially
done
I know
I can’t
do this
anymore
My soul
is heavy
and my
heart
is sore
I feel
the relief
in every
pore
As I walk
along
to the
hardware
store