Next time
I’ll buy my own
Tarnished
That
ring you
gave me
yesterday
Has
turned
my finger
green
A more
appropriate
metaphor
for our
relationship
I have
never seen
(Originally Posted 13.08.2019)
Honesty
I wrote this one
While hanging on
For a reply to a particular text
As I had shown it
I thought I’d blown it
And wasn’t sure what was next
As it was
It was just a pause
As you wrote back in earnest
And so then I knew
I still had you
And that my effort was worth it
Reassured
The relief
is palpable
My anxiety
is pacified
Our normality
is restored
Thank fuck
you replied
(Originally Posted 13.08.2019)
Aye, Right
Perhaps I could find a story
He said
That proves all the stars align
I fear that for that one
She said
I’d wait a long fucking time
Story Books
Read
to me
some
more
She
said
I
swoon
to the
sound
of your
voice
Tell
me
what
you
want
to
hear
He
said
You
know
it’s
always
your
choice
(Originally Posted 12.08.2020)
First Love Isn’t Always Kind
It does not matter
That my heart’s shattered
And my self esteem is on the floor
I know you only call me
When you’re feeling horny
And yet I’ll always be back for more
Bad Habits
We
really
should
Give
this
thing
up
But
my
willpower
is
fading
If
we
could
stop
Just
hooking
up
Then this
wouldn’t
feel so
degrading
(Originally Posted 12.08.2020)
Drinks With Friends
It’s not like I even
Fancy the guy
And I certainly
Don’t want to get hitched
But I’d be lying
If I tried denying
That sometimes
It would be nice to be picked
It Should Be Me
Looking
up
to
the
sky
Tears
falling
as
I
cry
Asking
over
and
over
why
Will
you
forever
pass
me
by
(Originally Posted 12.08.2019)
With Time Comes Acceptance, Supposedly
Stain free
Pain free
Neither really
Matter to me
As I’m still mad
And deeply sad
That this is how
It has to be
Only Sadness Remains
I wander barefoot
in the rain
Trying to wash
away your stain
Now that I’m left
in eternal pain
I’d give anything
to laugh again
(Originally Posted 12.08.2019)
It Was Only A 10p Mix Up
Based on a true story this
From when I was about six or seven
I stole some sweets
So the owner called the police
In order to teach me a lesson
I have always felt
He was a little harsh
And his reaction was over the top
But I guess I learned then
Never to steal again
Well, at least not from his shop
Cops & Robbers
Caught with
my hands
in the
sweetie jar
I retreat,
shamefaced,
when I
hear a
police car…
Who the
fuck has
called
the cops?
I only
stole
a few
pear
drops…
(Originally Posted 11.08.2019)
Better Off Alone
Why don’t you come over
He said
And spend time with me today
Because I’m better off alone
She said
I’ve learned that the hard way
Power
I’ve walked
along
this road
before
Feeling
lonely
and
insecure
At least
this time
I know
for sure
You
cannot
hurt me
anymore
(Originally Posted 11.08.2019)
Don’t Say I Didn’t Warn You
You badgered me into talking
As you were oh so concerned
So I opened that can
Then turned and ran
And left you with the worms
So Help Me…
Just
keep
pushing
me
To see
what
it’s
about
Just
don’t
blame
me
When I
finally
lash
out
(Originally Posted 11.08.2020)
When Pushed
I actually love sassy me
I just wonder where she went
As I really only see her
At times of hostility and torment
Undefeated
You might
not be
speaking
to me
But I know
you’re
speaking
about me
That
means
I win
(Originally Posted 10.08.2019)
Unreciprocated Love
It will never be
The right time for me
I just have to accept it
As I cannot take
The abject heartache
Each time I am rejected
Each Time We Meet
Why isn’t
it me,
she asks,
Why can’t
it be us?
For I
already
love another,
he says,
As her
dreams
crumble
to dust.
(Originally Posted 10.08.2019)
Putting The Flags Away
I don’t know why
I got carried away
I only smiled
That one day
It’s not like my sadness
Can fade to grey
As this black cloud
Is here to stay
‘A Little Peculiar’
Something happened this morning
When I sat up in my bed
I found that instead of yawning
I actually smiled instead
(Originally Posted 10.08.2020)
‘Help Is On The Way, Dear’
Tea
She said
Is that it?
Don’t you have anything stronger
I’ll have a look in the back
He said
But it might take a little longer
Stiff Upper Lip
I
feel
so
sad
She
said
Can
you
help
me?
I’ll
certainly
try
He
said
Here’s
some
tea
(Originally Posted 09.08.2020)
09.08
Three years on
From writing this
And that strength still eludes me
Don’t get me wrong
I can, at times, be strong
But my future still looks pretty gloomy
08.08
So it’s another birthday
And what a day it has been
If I’d have known last year
What I know now
I would have jacked it all in
But I suppose now it’s time
At this ripe old age
And much to my chagrin
To find a way of moving forward
And discover the strength within
(Originally Posted 09.08.2019)
Birthdays Are The Worst Days
I still don’t know
What the fuck to do
Even though today
I’m forty two
Entering My Fifth Decade
So I
turned
forty
today
And
what
exactly
did
I do?
Nothing
But
drink,
smoke
and cry
too much
Like
every
other
day
Without
you
Xxx
(Originally Posted 08.08.2020)
A Birthday (In Bognor) To Remember
A true story
This one is
From thirty eight years ago
We were on holiday
At Butlin’s that year
When I decided to take a stroll
I let go of
My mother’s hand
And wandered in a different direction
Off in search
Of sweets no doubt
Or some other such confection
I have no idea
How long I was gone
But at the time it felt like an age
Until I was found
By a kindly policeman
Who ended my little rampage
Next thing I remember
Was in the community centre
Being reunited with my mum
First she hugged me
And then she shook me
For making her so glum
But I’ll always treasure
My little endeavour
As it did teach me one thing
My independence
Was something to treasure
So I found it again when I turned eighteen
Childhood Memories
I got lost on my
eighth birthday.
Sometimes
I wonder
what would’ve
happened,
If I had never
been found.
(Originally Posted 08.08.2019)
It’s The Little Things On A Day Like This
A card left for me
On the pillow
Flowers and a bath bomb or two
I’ll buy them myself
Again this year
As there’s no way I can get them from you
Xxx
O Unhappy Day
I never
thought
you
wouldn’t
be here
today
It’s
still
hard to
accept
that you
went away
Perhaps
you’re
still
with me
here in
spirit
I just
wish
your
presence
was more
explicit
Xxx
(Originally Posted 08.08.2020)
My Real Family
Lockdown birthdays
Were no fun
Not for me
Or for anyone
This year I’ll make up
For being alone the last two
By spending the day
Having fun with you
That Time Of Year
Maybe
it’s
because
I can’t
be there
Or
perhaps
it’s
more
I just
don’t
care
For
now
that my
confidence
has
grown
I’ll
spend my
birthday
at home
alone
(Originally Posted 08.08.2020)
A Diamond In The Rough
Perhaps I do have a sense of humour.
Sometimes.
Out of Shape
In a world full of cubes,
I’m a dodecahedron.
Overly complicated.
(Originally Posted 07.08.2019)
Bash(Ful)
It was nice of them
To think of me
Very kind of them to try
But all I could think
As I was ushered in
Was that I wanted to curl up and die
The Surprise Party
Sorry
that
I’m not
jumping
with
delight
But
I would
have
preferred
to be
alone
tonight
(Originally Posted 07.08.2020)
‘The Winner Takes It All’
You ignored me for
That whole weekend
Never once looking me
In the eye
As you were so set on
Being their number one
You pretended not
To realise
But I knew full well
What you were doing
As that wasn’t
The only time
You’d been playing those games
For your own gain
Since you first planned
My demise
So I waited
And I watched
And sure enough
You came simpering back
So then I knew
All I had to do
Was to launch
My final attack
Good Enough
So I’m good enough
to speak to today?
Now all your friends
have gone away?
Well I’ll hold my tongue
and try to be nice.
But you’ll find my lenience
comes at a price.
(Originally Posted 07.08.2019)
It’s Getting Boring Now
Jesus.
I even depress myself sometimes,
So fuck knows how you feel.
Wallowing
I
could
lie
here
and
fade
away
I’m
neither
here
nor
there
Not
that
I expect
you
would
notice
Or
even
that
you’d
care
(Originally Posted 06.08.2020)
Unwilling To Submit
I asked for you
To give me time
And space to clear my head
But as you’ve shown
You can’t leave me alone
Let’s just call it quits instead
Over
Time may heal
Hearts can mend
Until then accept
This is the end
(Originally Posted 06.08.2019)
Regional Differences
There’s a lot behind
The C word
Most find it offputting and offensive
And while I don’t disagree
If you grew up like me
You possibly wouldn’t be so apprehensive
Through The Barricades (Scheme Burd Version)
Him:
Come
with
me
My
tender
one
Let us
roam
amongst
the
heather
Her:
Get
tae
fuck
Ya
daft
wee
cunt
We’re
no’
even
thegither
(Originally Posted 06.08.2020)
If Not Now, When?
I’ll talk you through each step
He said
I’ll explain everything as we go
That’s not what concerns me
She said
It’s the resultant shame I need to forgo
Like Riding A Bike
It’s
not
that
I don’t
want
to
She
said
It’s
more
that
I don’t
know
how
Just
come a
little
closer
He
said
None
of
that
matters
now
(Originally Posted 05.08.2020)
Another Failed Bribe
Please don’t bother
Sending a card
I have no use
For your money
In fact anything you post in
Will be thrown in the bin
As I couldn’t care less, honey
Congratulations
Am I
supposed
to feel
something?
Because
I don’t
Am I
supposed
to thank
you?
Because
I won’t
(Originally Posted 05.08.2020)
She Started It
Neither of us won
The war you waged
Still it makes me smile
To think of you enraged
Stale (mate)
You
deserve
less
I
deserve
more
We’re
both
fucked
either
way
So
let’s
call
it a
draw
(Originally Posted 05.08.2019)
‘Let Us Smile Each Chance We Get’
I lost that badge
Later that night
In a drunken haze
On Fleet Street
My arm was twisted
So the fun embargo lifted
And my fears, for once,
I managed to beat
Temple Bar
The hordes gather outside your hotel window.
Laughing,
Joking,
Having fun.
You wish you could be more like them.
Prettier,
Funnier,
More confident.
Instead you’re sitting in your room alone with the curtains drawn.
With nothing but your ‘I Hate People’ badge for company.
(Originally Posted 04.08.2019)
In The Aftermath
I don’t
know
what you
expected
You knew
something
inside me
had changed
It wasn’t
just your
advances
I rejected
It was
from
everyone
I abstained
Robotic
Take
that
look
off
your
face
You
can
hardly
be
surprised
You
know
my heart
cannot
race
And
I’m
dead
behind
the
eyes
(Originally Posted 04.08.2020)
Looking In All The Wrong Places
If it’s distance that you want
He said
Then that’s exactly what you’ll get
There has to be something more
She said
But I just haven’t found it yet
A Pin In A Map
Do you think you’ll get away with it
He said
That you will succeed in your plan
I just know I have to try
She said
I need as much distance as I can
(Originally Posted 03.08.2021)
Instant Gratification
It may well surprise you to know
I write most poems in under a minute
Especially each one of those
With a shitload of swear words in it
Catharsis
I
really
only
write
the
words
That
everyone
else is
thinking
I
just
say
what
comes
naturally
And
without
even
flinching
(Originally Posted 03.08.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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